I'm now considering commuting suicide because of the things i did with the twins...... then there's two much shit going on at home.....Work pretty much everywhere, and now my friends are cutting me off like i'm a freak on a leash or something.....I'm losing the will two live everyday when another one of my friends or people in general leave me like i'm worthless....... DO u have any idea what i feels LIKE knowing Ur a piece of shit that keeps screwing things up even though Ur nothing doing it on purpose..... Then knowing people can be cold hatred towards u in a heartbeat because of it...... I've already suicide attempt 15 times..... in the past three weeks...... and now i live the fact i'm a controlled freak because i pop HDAD pills two calm my nerves..... I've feeling less human and less alive every day i live..............Lonely, is a feeling that one person's heart can not bear two feel for long periods of time, for instance that one may loss himself in the feeling they receive form this burden.