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It's July.
12 years ago
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Trip to, heave and ho; Up, down, to and fro- You have no word
I'm back. Again again. Okay. I owe an explanation about my inactivity as well as an apology and a promise.
Since february:
I haven't got a PO box anymore. That was since january, but I thought i'd repeat that news just in case.
-I quit my job, and I am completely broke and looking for work.
-I had at least three mental breakdowns, dealing with relationships, depression and generally feeling very inadequate and small.
-I have been very busy with my community garden, which has slowly been deteriorating due to all the other members abandoning the project and leaving me the only one to care for the plants.
-I shaved my head.
-I donated 18 inches of hair to locks of love.
-I was shit-talked by some of my so called "friends" who've i've since cleansed myself of and avoided any sort of contact with, even though I have been called almost constantly by them.
-I'm showing signs of chronic joint and bone pain from some gnarly past injuries i've had.. My wrist being one spot and my upper back and neck being the other.
-My great gpa is in hospice and isn't doing well at all. i've been visiting him with family.
-My dog, Toby, is also not doing so well. He has cancer. I'm not sure he'll live through the year.
-I've been in many protests locally, doin my hippie thing and keeping my mind occupied.
-I have been online but unlike I used to be, it's only been facebook to keep in contact with my family and most recently(as in a few days ago) tumblr.
I feel like a real douche, for not being on here or even just coming on to explain what's going on. But like I said, fb has pretty much been the only online-ing i've been doing at all. I've just been way too busy and wrapped up in my life and it's been a very overwhelming few months for me. I've come back because i'm trying to re-rail my self and stay in touch with the people who matter most, because i've come to find that without my friends i've pretty much got nobody to talk to. I'm a lousy excuse for a friend, and i'm sorry for my inactivity, guys.
-I haven't forgotten about the valentines day trades. I've also vowed not to even go looking through my 7217 submissions, 30 comments or anything else related to my half. I dont know what was done or what wasn't but I shouldn't have dived in to a large project like that without having a grasp on my own life and my problems first. I have dozens of sketches and some near complete works, but it's not enough. I promise you all, you're gonna get your art and if I have to, i'll make you all something extra as an apology. It was a poor choice on my part and I don't mean to make you guys wait because of my incompetence.
If anyone has any questions or wants to yell at me or ask me to elaborate on something, please go ahead. I'm out of hiding and i'd like to hear from those who remember me, and I pray you guys accept my apology for my inactivity here. I'm gonna make it up to you all somehow.
Since february:
I haven't got a PO box anymore. That was since january, but I thought i'd repeat that news just in case.
-I quit my job, and I am completely broke and looking for work.
-I had at least three mental breakdowns, dealing with relationships, depression and generally feeling very inadequate and small.
-I have been very busy with my community garden, which has slowly been deteriorating due to all the other members abandoning the project and leaving me the only one to care for the plants.
-I shaved my head.
-I donated 18 inches of hair to locks of love.
-I was shit-talked by some of my so called "friends" who've i've since cleansed myself of and avoided any sort of contact with, even though I have been called almost constantly by them.
-I'm showing signs of chronic joint and bone pain from some gnarly past injuries i've had.. My wrist being one spot and my upper back and neck being the other.
-My great gpa is in hospice and isn't doing well at all. i've been visiting him with family.
-My dog, Toby, is also not doing so well. He has cancer. I'm not sure he'll live through the year.
-I've been in many protests locally, doin my hippie thing and keeping my mind occupied.
-I have been online but unlike I used to be, it's only been facebook to keep in contact with my family and most recently(as in a few days ago) tumblr.
I feel like a real douche, for not being on here or even just coming on to explain what's going on. But like I said, fb has pretty much been the only online-ing i've been doing at all. I've just been way too busy and wrapped up in my life and it's been a very overwhelming few months for me. I've come back because i'm trying to re-rail my self and stay in touch with the people who matter most, because i've come to find that without my friends i've pretty much got nobody to talk to. I'm a lousy excuse for a friend, and i'm sorry for my inactivity, guys.
-I haven't forgotten about the valentines day trades. I've also vowed not to even go looking through my 7217 submissions, 30 comments or anything else related to my half. I dont know what was done or what wasn't but I shouldn't have dived in to a large project like that without having a grasp on my own life and my problems first. I have dozens of sketches and some near complete works, but it's not enough. I promise you all, you're gonna get your art and if I have to, i'll make you all something extra as an apology. It was a poor choice on my part and I don't mean to make you guys wait because of my incompetence.
If anyone has any questions or wants to yell at me or ask me to elaborate on something, please go ahead. I'm out of hiding and i'd like to hear from those who remember me, and I pray you guys accept my apology for my inactivity here. I'm gonna make it up to you all somehow.
As for the valentines day trade I can care less about it, I had my half done but I was waiting to hear from you, but I don't really care if you got your half done or not I'm just happy to see you back and well!
I really hope you got everything settled and you stay here longer <3
BUT NONSENSE.
You'll get your half. It gives me a chance to draw creepy anyways. ^_^ It's just been hard to focus. Right now i'm warming up on my digital art, because I haven't done all that much with traditional lately.
How have you been?
Well I've been up and down but mostly great! Even though Ive gotten fired from two jobs the last couple months I've Been keeping my head up and not let life bring me down. Lately I've been feeling great and more out going, catching up with friends I haven't seen in years or since high school. And drawing and art has been keeping me in a positive mood as well ^^
Sorry to hear about the jobs, but i'm glad you're feeling optimistic about life.. That's always good to hear and I know you'll find another job if that's what you are after; Hopefully it'll be worth more than the last two combined in terms of not wasting your time. C:
What's new, Miss turquoise-blue?
I got sick some months ago and my eating habit has changed a lot, now I can eat very little meat or greasy things. So I munch on salads and good yummy fiiiisssh. Well, I can stomach chicken but eh. It doesn't appeal to me very much. Foods man, loving the fruits. I feel a lot better, not weight down. Exploring vegan recipes, its a lot of fun.
I'm so tired, ugh. Falling asleep as I type this. xD
I'll note you tomorrow or you note me about stuff. Missed you~ <3
-Snuggles.-
As for your summary, i'm glad overall you've been well! Being sick is absolutely no fun at all.. but i'm really glad you are feeling better, and exploring new options. I'd be happy to share some nom recipes, if you are interested. Fruit is quite possibly the most amazing substance on earth, even above chocolate and caffeine.. at least for me it is. x3 Have you a favourite?
Good luck with your job, too! Bosses are generally jerks, but normally it's just a front because they aren't allowed to pick favourites and they are supposed to treat everyone equally.. So why not be a big jerk to all their underlings? Baws style. c: Once you've become accustomed to his mannerisms, it'll just become habit to deal with. <3
Missed you too, you big eye-appealing fluffball of awesomeness. n_n
You are not a douche, you are a person with a lot on their plate who needed some time away to sort things out <3
Thanks for being supportive. You're a great friend, you know that?
DIDJA GET MY LETTER~
AND YES AAAAAAA I just read it and HELP SO MANY CUTE DOODLES AA AAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA you made my day :D I'll be sure to write back soon!
My next letter will be full of coloured stuff too.. I might need a bigger mailer! ;3
But i'm lookin forward to the reply, whoop whoop!
And thanks. I am really bad about messaging people anymore because it's usually just me pouring out gloom and people being like "Pfft whatever she's an emo kid" and ignoring me. xD So.. I tend to keep it awlll in. I don't like ot bother people with drama, 'cause I don't want to bring others down. :/
Hi.
I need something to hide under, haha. I've been exposeddd~
I'm glad you came to say Hi. I missed you and your awesome arts. Your trade is coming, I promise. And I could mail you the other fail sketches too, if you want, to make up for my lateness, or just because. :C
Great to hear form youu.
I shaved it to earn money for cancer research for the "Saint Baldrick's Foundation". It's a charity that helps kids with cancer.
In doing so I also donated all of my hair to locks of love to make a wig for kids without hair. Double whammy. (:
I don't think my hair has ever been this short.. But.. It feels AMAZING. I can swim and dry off almost instantly. I can stick my head out of the window when I drive around. :D
It's crazy awesome. n_n
-creeps under da rock- I AM A ROCK, I am an iiiiiiislanddd~