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my dumb journal about ID
12 years ago
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this is gonna be tactless and rushed so i am sorry if i offended anyone but this shouldnt be applied to you or anybody else it is about ME
so im sure i confuse quiet a lot of people with like my identity and such, cause it seems like practically every other month i'm calling myself some label or dropping one. And then like my friends call me different things than my other friends and then i get in a mess because someone calls me out on it and i never have a good response and it gets super messy.
I just wanted to clear it all up for people that i basically identify as myself
but like im always nervous explaining this because i feel im being insensitive to trans* people or like all people because im there being like IM THIS NO WAIT I DONT CARE OOPS IM THIS AGAIN NOPE DEFINATLY THAT and im sure people like me are really annoying and a bit of a disgrace to like the queer community since we come across as not being genuine and all the bad things.
I BET THIS JOURNAL SOUNDS SO PHONY AND PATHETIC I AM SORRY
but like what im trying to say is that a lot of people call me by female pronouns, almost everybody does, thats because i identified as female for a really long time. some people call me by male pronouns because i identified as male in the past. i would prefer it if i didnt go by male pronouns since ive started to feel super uncomfortable and i realise that i should be comfortable with people calling me my pronouns and not feel disconnected. I KNOW THIS IS CONFUSING AND IM SUPER SORRY but i've had a rough year so far and its made me take a long hard look at myself and re-access without the distraction of anyone.
And then we have my pronouns of choice which are them/their or it. anything that doesnt define or separate
i just feel define-less. like i dont lack or possess anything that would define me.
(except breasts wowee i hate breasts but that isnt really about feeling dysphoric its a totally different story for another time.)
BUT HONESTLY THIS JOURNAL IS SO CONFUSING AND OUT OF ORDER IM SORRY IF YOU HAVE ANY QUESTIONS ABOUT MY DUMB STATE GO AHEAD I KNOW I HAVENT MADE IT CLEAR i just kinda need to try and get this across
so im sure i confuse quiet a lot of people with like my identity and such, cause it seems like practically every other month i'm calling myself some label or dropping one. And then like my friends call me different things than my other friends and then i get in a mess because someone calls me out on it and i never have a good response and it gets super messy.
I just wanted to clear it all up for people that i basically identify as myself
but like im always nervous explaining this because i feel im being insensitive to trans* people or like all people because im there being like IM THIS NO WAIT I DONT CARE OOPS IM THIS AGAIN NOPE DEFINATLY THAT and im sure people like me are really annoying and a bit of a disgrace to like the queer community since we come across as not being genuine and all the bad things.
I BET THIS JOURNAL SOUNDS SO PHONY AND PATHETIC I AM SORRY
but like what im trying to say is that a lot of people call me by female pronouns, almost everybody does, thats because i identified as female for a really long time. some people call me by male pronouns because i identified as male in the past. i would prefer it if i didnt go by male pronouns since ive started to feel super uncomfortable and i realise that i should be comfortable with people calling me my pronouns and not feel disconnected. I KNOW THIS IS CONFUSING AND IM SUPER SORRY but i've had a rough year so far and its made me take a long hard look at myself and re-access without the distraction of anyone.
And then we have my pronouns of choice which are them/their or it. anything that doesnt define or separate
i just feel define-less. like i dont lack or possess anything that would define me.
(except breasts wowee i hate breasts but that isnt really about feeling dysphoric its a totally different story for another time.)
BUT HONESTLY THIS JOURNAL IS SO CONFUSING AND OUT OF ORDER IM SORRY IF YOU HAVE ANY QUESTIONS ABOUT MY DUMB STATE GO AHEAD I KNOW I HAVENT MADE IT CLEAR i just kinda need to try and get this across
i much prefer neutral pronouns.
but often my super close friends will call me by female/male pronouns because they know me pretty much inside and out and they KNOW im not binary they just call me those pronouns out of habit.
i feel a bit fickle saying that but im not too sure how to explain it?
like i prefer neutral ones, i dont mind people using male ones though. the only one who really gets away with using female pronouns on me is my partner since we know each other best and it doesnt matter what gender wed refer to one another as since it doesnt change anything
i guess that makes me fickle too haha!
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