Lost Friends, Old Scars, and Broken Hearts
12 years ago
I'm sure what I'm about to say here is going to come as no surprise to some of you, but bear with me here. :)
Anyways. I've been toying on and off with this, but I think that it's finally time to retire Pitchy as an... active character, so to speak. He's been around in some way, shape or form for almost five years now - I know, not a huge length of time in terms of this fandom, but to put it in perspective, that's almost a quarter of my life!
And in that time... Well, lets just say I sometimes have a hard time differentiating reality from fantasy, heh. At some point that pesky little dragon became less of a character and more a reflection, an extension of myself. And, as any person, I had my ups and downs over that period. With those ups and downs came a lot of baggage that weighs me down to this day: broken promises, unfulfilled vows, quite a few regrets.
I suppose, anymore, I just feel like I want a clean start, as impossible as that may be. And with so much of that history attached to this dragon, still a part of me even if a character, well... Sometimes it's not so easy to let go of the past, even as you know that that's what you have to do.
By retiring him... As symbolic as it way be, I feel that it will help with the letting go.
That's not to say ya'll won't see him around occasionally, just more on special occasions. Instead, as the lot of you may have guessed, it'll be this gryph I've been tossing up here taking the fore. An actual new start? Maybe, maybe not. But one can hope, eh?
Anyways. Burdthing, signing off.
Anyways. I've been toying on and off with this, but I think that it's finally time to retire Pitchy as an... active character, so to speak. He's been around in some way, shape or form for almost five years now - I know, not a huge length of time in terms of this fandom, but to put it in perspective, that's almost a quarter of my life!
And in that time... Well, lets just say I sometimes have a hard time differentiating reality from fantasy, heh. At some point that pesky little dragon became less of a character and more a reflection, an extension of myself. And, as any person, I had my ups and downs over that period. With those ups and downs came a lot of baggage that weighs me down to this day: broken promises, unfulfilled vows, quite a few regrets.
I suppose, anymore, I just feel like I want a clean start, as impossible as that may be. And with so much of that history attached to this dragon, still a part of me even if a character, well... Sometimes it's not so easy to let go of the past, even as you know that that's what you have to do.
By retiring him... As symbolic as it way be, I feel that it will help with the letting go.
That's not to say ya'll won't see him around occasionally, just more on special occasions. Instead, as the lot of you may have guessed, it'll be this gryph I've been tossing up here taking the fore. An actual new start? Maybe, maybe not. But one can hope, eh?
Anyways. Burdthing, signing off.
This one just feels right, though, so... *chuckleshrug*
I kid, heh. I just... do my best, same as ever, heh.