I don't know I've been through so much in just over a year now and it feels good and bad. Relationships have come and gone. Some i wonder what would have happened, had something gone differently. Some i am glad for, some not so much. I am amazingly happy to be with my mate and never want to lose him as he is my world. I have come to find a Master that takes care of me. I should feel very happy. But i just feel off. In the past year and a half friends have been leaving my life much to rapidly. Friends that where there for me through so much, and that i fought for and stood for every day of the year. But in the end they're gone. Leaving me nothing i can do to bring them back. Some i realize hate me, some i don't understand why they do. and some, i just know are to scared to just grow up and move on.

*sighs*

I guess just i see myself moving forward in life and i thought I'd have them in it with me, but alas they chose to move away from me, (for better or worse?). I cannot know what the future holds nor should I. So to conclude this, i thank those friends that are in my life and are their for me. And also thank my mate for being strong even when he normally couldn't be.
Simply I love you Night you are my life and heart and I realize your tournaments are going right now and i cannot wait to be able to talk/skype/call/text with you as you have time because you mean the world to me, you are my heart my fire and are just the best a man could ask for. Especially since you can put up with my derpyness <.<

Written at 11 pm at night so ignore grammar and stuff.