A slice of life of Red Silver
Well been a depressing time for me, not sure what causes it, but just down most of the time.
At the moment, it's family that seems to be the cause of it.
My brother came around, just to pick up a letter, some food and then go again.
My mother comes up and asked if he had told me he gotten some money and he had not. That annoyed my mother, because he borrowed some money from me and said nothing.
This isn't unusual. At the moment, he needed the money for his girlfriend and I wasn't in need of the money, but since my brothers had borrow money from me, my parents and such, I had to close of from borrowing any more money, because they could make me broke, at least more then I am.
While I wasn't worried about it, this annoyed my mother and told me to demand the money of him. This is a talk I've heard before and it's not wrong, just can't squeeze blood from a rock, I think the saying go, so I left the room because this is the usual talk that won't make me or her feel better.
This turned into her thinking I am angry with her, which in turn made her lash out on my father for having promised to lend some money to my brother and he had to borrow from me, so it just a vicious circle.
For one thing, I wasn't mad at my mother and tried to talk to her about other things that isn't about money, but her attitude and short answers made it clear she isn't in the mood for it, so for the most of the day, we have kept for ourselves in different rooms.
Been trying to keep of chats, because my mood isn't good and best not to infect others with it, because it can't be solved at the moment.
Just makes me feel tired and down, so don't have the energy to defend or agree on things.