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Dreams, part deux...
17 years ago
The Rantings of an Art Crazed Chow, Second verse, same as the first.
*** Warning!!! Rant Ahead which may not be Worksafe or safe for minors!!!
I'm trying to break myself of the habit of revealing my dreams, heck, who wants to look into the mind of a very disturbed person? But I feel I must vent a bit cause this has been eating at me for most of the morning.
Throughout the night, my dreams have been for the most part rather harmless, as they are supposed to be. My somewhat normal routine for getting up in the morning is to let the clock-radio play until the last snooze alarm goes off, then I get up. Well, just before the last snooze alarm chimes I go into a short mini-dream. I suspect it was cued by the music that was playing at the time but I can't remember what was playing. anyway, it starts with me in some sort of dorm room, don't know if it is college or military. It seems to be night and I was invited over for a sleep-over by a woman with get this, Pink Hair!!! We settle down for the night and in the course of the night, our positions change. I was barely aware of other women sleeping in the room. I felt something touch me and I begin to feel aroused, I assumed it was her hand which gently grabbed mine and began to move it towards... Well, use your imagination here. So the rubbing action began to get intense and then suddenly, right out of nowhere she shouts at the top of her lungs, "Are you trying to have sex with me??? Ewwww!" At that point everyone in the room wakes up and looks at me as if I committed some major evil. I felt embarrassed at first, then angry as I pulled on my pants, my shirt, one shoe and began to storm out of the room, but not before I spoke my mind. I can't remember what I said but somewhere in that was "You came on to me, you knew what would happen, and this is the last straw!" The scene fades to a common area where I'm confronted by the pink haired woman and several of her friends who had blue hair. She apologized and asked me to come over again. I turn my back and walked away. At that point I woke up.
Normally dreams like this do not phase me, but this was the first dream ever I had of this and frankly it scares me!!! I usually don't follow my dreams because my rational mind tells me that all those are were random thoughts jumbled together to empty out the mind for the next day's thinking. However with the way my lovelife have been going, I am feeling that this could be an omen, of what I have no idea.
The feeling of anger and frustration is gone now but the feeling of embarrassment still remains. I'm so close now to calling my girlfriend, and telling her it is over, deciding if what few female friends I have should be kept at a distance, all sorts of bad thoughts, yet would that be fair? I don't expect any answers from those out there reading this so don't worry about it. This could be the beginning of my midlife crisis but either way, any closer and I would officially declare myself celibate, contemplate having the old chubby chopped off and falling off the grid. Chances are I will feel better in a few more hours, like I said, don't worry about me, I'll cope as usual. Cheers.
I'm trying to break myself of the habit of revealing my dreams, heck, who wants to look into the mind of a very disturbed person? But I feel I must vent a bit cause this has been eating at me for most of the morning.
Throughout the night, my dreams have been for the most part rather harmless, as they are supposed to be. My somewhat normal routine for getting up in the morning is to let the clock-radio play until the last snooze alarm goes off, then I get up. Well, just before the last snooze alarm chimes I go into a short mini-dream. I suspect it was cued by the music that was playing at the time but I can't remember what was playing. anyway, it starts with me in some sort of dorm room, don't know if it is college or military. It seems to be night and I was invited over for a sleep-over by a woman with get this, Pink Hair!!! We settle down for the night and in the course of the night, our positions change. I was barely aware of other women sleeping in the room. I felt something touch me and I begin to feel aroused, I assumed it was her hand which gently grabbed mine and began to move it towards... Well, use your imagination here. So the rubbing action began to get intense and then suddenly, right out of nowhere she shouts at the top of her lungs, "Are you trying to have sex with me??? Ewwww!" At that point everyone in the room wakes up and looks at me as if I committed some major evil. I felt embarrassed at first, then angry as I pulled on my pants, my shirt, one shoe and began to storm out of the room, but not before I spoke my mind. I can't remember what I said but somewhere in that was "You came on to me, you knew what would happen, and this is the last straw!" The scene fades to a common area where I'm confronted by the pink haired woman and several of her friends who had blue hair. She apologized and asked me to come over again. I turn my back and walked away. At that point I woke up.
Normally dreams like this do not phase me, but this was the first dream ever I had of this and frankly it scares me!!! I usually don't follow my dreams because my rational mind tells me that all those are were random thoughts jumbled together to empty out the mind for the next day's thinking. However with the way my lovelife have been going, I am feeling that this could be an omen, of what I have no idea.
The feeling of anger and frustration is gone now but the feeling of embarrassment still remains. I'm so close now to calling my girlfriend, and telling her it is over, deciding if what few female friends I have should be kept at a distance, all sorts of bad thoughts, yet would that be fair? I don't expect any answers from those out there reading this so don't worry about it. This could be the beginning of my midlife crisis but either way, any closer and I would officially declare myself celibate, contemplate having the old chubby chopped off and falling off the grid. Chances are I will feel better in a few more hours, like I said, don't worry about me, I'll cope as usual. Cheers.
TRAIN
~train
I feel maybe that's what it is. A mid-life crisis.
InnocentTazlet
!innocenttazlet
The route of love afairs and how a dream can change the course of your life. Sometimes its little to do with whether the dream had meaning or not, but if you felt it had meaning. Your perception of its affect on you whether you feel it had hidden meaning or a clearly indicated one. Its often how you act after the events that determins the othcome. Its all too easy to some times see random things are showingthe future. Anf how you change your behaviour can directly make these thoughts come true aswell. Whether the steps or actions you do or dont make from this will be posative or negative overall only time can tell. I dont know if this is a crisis, but Ive been a person so bound to any negative ideas and thoughts and dreams that have materuialised in my life over time that the bad stuff i fear has always come true in the end. I hope its effects wear of on you and by this point your feeling better. Oh remeber your on FA, you would have to be pretty bad to get classed as disturbed on here. Often its not the dreams we have but at the conclusions we draw from them that are the biggest things that change our erspective on events etc
dsand101
~dsand101
OP
Thanks. I've been trying to wrap my mind around this whole thing and finally yesterday I calmed down enough to rationalize the meanings. A dream is a dream like a cigar is just a cigar. I should not let something like this get to me as strongly as it did. Anyway, thanks for the response. Cheers.
