Well its been a while since I've done a journal entry, and even longer since i've talked about what has been happening in my life. I guess it is about time I do so for the ones that care enough or are curious enough to read.

Jobless- Yeah its been this way since I've been at the station and really seeking a job right now, though you know, with the economy how it is right now, especially around San Diego. (( though I honestly don't know if it is better or worse in other areas. Please forgive my ignorance.)) Part time jobs as well seem really hard to find at the moment, and full time jobs all want hours that interfere with my college schedule. There's a few things that really upset me about the situation right now. First off as I stated either i'm doing something wrong or part time or later jobs just seem hard to come by, and my dad is really getting on me about being jobless. Second, experience. Of course employers want experience and most of the jobs avalable seem to be mostly only for those who have plenty of experience in the fields, not much for entry level jobs. Third. I could have two jobs that I could have in an instant, either working at the gas station again for minimum pay doing work that I really don't enjoy, or at SoE being a game tester which would be awesome, but they want me to work hours that interfere with my class times.

If there is anyone in the San Diego area that knows of any decent jobs and/or could possible give me a recommendation for them, please please please let me know.

You know just how much torture it was sitting at best buy, looking at the video cards, thinking how much i want a new one for my computer, but knowing if I buy the card I will be in some trouble in the next couple weeks unless a job popped up. And do you know just how upsetting it is going to be when I go to the ren faire with the family on the first, unable to go and spend any money? GAAAAH!!! Worse off I still desprately want to see the play Wicked, but do not have the money for that either.

Relationship and entertainment wise: Well as it has been I am still unmated, but lately I've begun to take a liking to a couple people, but I am torn about what to do at the moment. I guess it doesn't much matter at this point, however it is still nervewracking. There is one in my area that I am in, though we don't get much opportunity to get together, mostly due to our schedules, I'm awake "normal" hours, and he is awake all through the night, due to his work. We are both also in some money situations and with gas being as high as it is, he has to save every penny for gas to get to work. He is also HORRIBLY stubborn, won't let me go pick him up nor treat him to food *grumble, grumble* The other one is once again clear on the other side of the United States, and for the most part much of the only interest point that keeps us together is Vanguard. I feel a bit stronger of a connection though, but that is probably because I'm more relaxed in the digital medium. In person with the other, I still have a very thick shell around me and am very hesitant to do anything, probably due to my last relationship *Shrugs* I've also begun to make myself for the most part scarce as well, really focusing on speaking to those two over the net. I'm disliking that I am beginning to become reclusive again. I guess my craft whoreyness in vanguard is to blame for that but *shrugs* If there is anyone playing Vanguard: Saga of Heroes on the Seradon server, please let me know.

I can't really think of all too much else to say right now, those issues are the only ones that are really dominating my life at the moment. Oh, aside from this story, which I recommend to EVERYONE!!! http://forestkeep.orcas.net/

Until next time I feel like posting my life, or more likely until I get a responce from yah, see you all later.