i know most my journal as of late have been full of drama and stoof but i honestly feel really sad right now. haloween is coming up and i still will not be able to fufill my dream of wearing a fursuit to work. and at times i think my dream of owning one will never come true. they are so expensive and working where i am now it prolly won't ever happen. i need a car more. and its not just the fursuit i want the new Mac pro thats coming out. and again i have the number one bumbest dream. i wanna be a Mr. mom. i wanna be a dad and stay at home and raise my kids right. but admiting that to my folks would prolly be suicide. becasue how stupid it is. i have also been blocked by a few people i like recently. that in itself makes me sad

*sighs* sorry for being such a downer i just need to get these thought out there is all.