I'm sorry. I know I mess up a lot and I know I'm not perfect. I know I can be weired. If I've done anything I want to know because I don't want to do wrong anymore. I'm sorry to everyone for causing this internet drama that I normally hate looking at. I know I jump to conclusions.

I've been breaking down the last couple days and just want things to go back the way they were. I don't think I can continue this way. I can't do alot of the things I normally do without thinking about it because it was something I thought about in everything I do. I don't expect a lot of you to understand what's happening and I don't want to explain here...

Please though, I don't know what else to do. This isn't something I normally do but I feel I have to and am admittedly desperate. I just don't think life can go back to normal after this.

Sorry...

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