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Feeling pretty weird
12 years ago
Ya know, recently I've found free-time to actually be uncomfortable in
a way.
Weird, right? Shouldn't it be relaxing orrecharging?
But for several weeks I haven't really hada spark of creativity. I have time to sit
down and work on something, anything, but there's no drive. And it bothers me!
I feel like the only time I'm doing anything of value is with friends. Literally,
the last two creative things I did were for someone else, not for my own benefit.
I've been pouring myself into other people's lives for a while now, and when the
dust clears and there comes a slow, unsocial day to myself (like today), I feel dead.
I tap my foot waiting for responses on facebook and I pace around anxiously when
I'm texting. And it's days like today that relieve me of distractions like that, and
make me realize that I have nothing else to really do. It's pathetic.
It may sound admirable that I live mostly for my friends, but I gotta get
something going, something to progress with. Learn Java, work on my fursuit,
plan a trip, write a book, something.
It's weird, it's almost like I'm becoming an extrovert. I used to value
my alone time. But nowadays, I dread it. 
Gaze into the future magic otter!
Same goes for you, of course. Just need to find another big thing to latch onto. I'm confident you'll hit something, you're too eager and creative a person not to :)
Theres also video games too. Those can be VERY entertaining when theres nothing else to do. Maybe you need a friend to show you the proper way to relax :3