Update and such is owed so here is for you guys to read.

I have now been living in San Jose for a little over a week now and I am still trying to adjust and get used to new surroundings and having and living with a new boyfriend, which is both fun and a lot of work, more so than I thought. Going through the "living together" in phase and he is adjusting to having someone around. He is so used to being independent and having things his way for living like that for so long, that it does bring up some bumps, but we all have to work on getting used to being around each other now on a daily basis.

As for a job, he has had me on a, what I guess can be called a vacation period, so I have not turned in applications yet. Heck, I haven't even gotten to unpack fully yet, but getting that done this week starting today. I've already seen places with 'hiring' signs and going to hit them up, so do not go thinking that I am being lazy and not looking around still any of you!

As for how my family is, I honestly cannot care less. The only thing I do care about them, is I do not want them to end up homeless, hospitalized, or dead. Recently I received a text from Mother stating that they received another eviction notice due to stepdad's former boss (whose name is on the lease or something like that) has filed papers to have that done so. I see that as a great thing! I'm out and away from it, this will force Mother to actually get out and away from stepdad, and stepdad and all the druggies he's let stay there are getting what's owed. As for dad, have not talked to him much since I've been here. Mostly due to the fact that he didn't believe I was gonna leave and then stating it was stupid of me to leave but he is glad that I am away from that hazardous environment. I know my parents care on some level and in their own ways, I just wish that it didn't turn out the way things did.

As for where I am living now, it does not come without its own flaws. For example, a neighbor was high on drugs caused a problem, he was stupid and called the cops, tried using my boyfriend in his words to get his way, but he was the one taken away, the irony is, just 2 days before he was saying how smart he was and that drugs are not that bad. Ha! Those whom stopped evolving never cease to amuse me.

Pros about new home though is that there is bus stop near by, am very close to where they hold Further Confusion and an Anime Convention. What I like most is I am 'in the middle of life and death'. Explanation: To right of us is Buddhist monk temple, which promotes life and to the left is a crematory, which is death. Anyone who knows me think this too may be ironic as well?

I have not made any new friends or really have gotten to hang out with people I know down here. Boyfriend's coworkers I have met and am friends on some level with 3 of them. I did get to spend time with an online friend of 4+ years for the first time while he was out in San Francisco, which made me so happy because he was doubtful about it happening. Showed I can be optimistic as well as negative.

Aside from that, I have not been able to socialize really or make friends on my own. I've thought about it and the two furs that I knew from when they lived down in SoCal and moved up here way back when, I guess it was rather presumptuous of me on what level friends we are, haha. What I mean is, I guess I am not not the hanging out with type person for them as I do not click with their current crowds, but I should've foreseen that right? After all, even when they were down there, we didn't get to socialize that much either, but they are still nice enough to send me a message back on IMs and such, so must mean are friends on some level and that makes me happy too. ^^

As for what do I plan to do now that I am away I haven't thought further than to look for work, look into schools, and save up money for when I am ready. I still think life would be easier if we had cutiemarks so many of us don't go through life feeling like we wasted time on things that were not meant for us. Lame with the MLP reference right? I was told my student version of software would no longer work since I am no longer a student, which makes sense, but I hope it still works so I can work on portfolio. I still would like to do 3D art and get better 2D, but I feel that it isn't what is meant for me, so I know I will not be great or get far with it, and I am not being negative when I say this. I still enjoy it, but know that it is not my calling.

To the friends I did leave, I am deeply saddened by you becoming a price I had to be to get out of where I was. I am lucky enough to still be able to speak to you via messages and e-mails and know that with conventions and just being a few hours away, we can meet again for a time. You guys were a big part of the reason I was able to make it through my ordeals and have helped me progress to where I am now. You've stuck with me, knowing how bad and mental I am, and I do not know how. I know it may not mean much, but I really don't think I would've be alive without the friendships that I have. And NO! I am not going to make another MLP reference >.> One is enough!

As for the stories, I know you are sick of waiting, and it is poor behavior how I have not produced anything yet and have no just reason. I can only say that I am working on it bit by bit and going over those small bits and making changes. To those who have been waiting patiently, it is greatly appreciated and I hope not all are gone and whom stays and reads, will enjoy it.

That is all for now. Will see what comes in the days ahead. Later!