I swear! I am so fed up with my awful computer I could die and take it with me! Nothing I've tried is working. I've deleted even more off my hard drive, checked for viruses, and bought a cooling fan and it's still crashing. It crashed five times just today! I can't take it anymore!

I don't know what to do anymore. I don't think there's anything I can do at this point; I don't have enough for a new computer and I am at a total loss. I can't even do my art anymore. Just a few minutes ago I was just sitting and working on a little picture and it's lagging so bad I can barely draw and then BAM, it crashed again. This SUCKS! My computer is the only computer in my house that has a Photoshop I can work with. The one my mom borrowed from my uncle (which is the same terrible brand and year as my awful computer) does have Photoshop, but it's a really really outdated version that I cannot work with to save my life; that and the screen dimensions have been messed up somehow and I cannot fix it so whatever I draw will look very off.

I suppose I gotta close commissions now too. I don't want to, I really want to draw and commissions would really help me raise enough money to get a new computer, but if I can't use Photoshop then there's really no way for me to draw much of anything digital, which is my preferred medium. I hate my life right now.

I'm just crap outta luck. I think I'm gonna go draw something nasty and awful, yeah, that always puts me in a good mood... or I might go cry. Crying is good too... :(