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MB#51: 'Coming out' 2 times over.
12 years ago
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Why 'coming out' 2 times over?
It's because I'm not only not straight.
I don't believe anymore, if you get what I mean.
And I don't know how to convey this to my rather conservative family without making all the good things in my life (possibly even theirs) come crashing down in mere minutes. It is probably impossible.
Still, I have been pretending to be straight and faithful 'like every good man should' to please my family, but in doing so, I keep lying to myself, and I don't like that. I want to be honest with myself, but at the same time, I have this very painful and irrational fear of angering people even the slightest.
I have gone with the flow just to keep everyone around me happy for almost 24 years. That has to end now.
It's because I'm not only not straight.
I don't believe anymore, if you get what I mean.
And I don't know how to convey this to my rather conservative family without making all the good things in my life (possibly even theirs) come crashing down in mere minutes. It is probably impossible.
Still, I have been pretending to be straight and faithful 'like every good man should' to please my family, but in doing so, I keep lying to myself, and I don't like that. I want to be honest with myself, but at the same time, I have this very painful and irrational fear of angering people even the slightest.
I have gone with the flow just to keep everyone around me happy for almost 24 years. That has to end now.
