I have come to the conclusion that I need to assess the people that I take as "friends", to take a long hard look at this culture that I belong to...it may be that I have to walk away from the "furry fandom" or what you will to call it entirely and it saddens me to say some. I have met many people, some good but many that have abused my friendship, compassion, trust, love, generosity. Many that have been resentful, jealous, misguiding or have had compleat and utter malaise toward me. I know that in many cultures and fandoms there are people like this, I also know the rumors and shit talk flows freely as if from some never ending spring. I am sad to say that I have seen this from a culture I love, one that I have made every attempt to protect, expand and grow. If need be, I will walk away from this culture, from here on forward I must figure out how to make this decision. I need to weed out people that cause me harm, that speak nothing but filth and nonsense from their lips, that wish to use me, that give false hopes and promises, that wish the redeem themselves with hollow words for some unknown reason. I will be making decisions, I will be eliminating so called "friends" and I will be rewriting how I live, behave and who I associate with on my path. I will not tolerate others bring suffering to me and I will not tolerate me bringing suffering to myself. With that being said I will not begin this overdue process. Thank you for taking the time to read this and if you wish to discuss it please feel free to contact me