I think I need a hobby or something to get me out of this feeling of "accomplishing nothing". I'm constantly working, not doing too much when I'm at home other than of course spending time with my little brother. And I simply feel like I'm not getting anything done. I know I somehow need to find a way on getting my education finished while maintaining my job at AT&T but I certainly don't have the start up cost and I highly doubt as if I'll get federal funding again with my current salary and what not. Too bad all that money is pretty much sunk in bills and medical expenses and supporting my family. =/ I need to get out of this funk and have something excited to look forward to. I have some vacation time coming up but I feel like I need to save it up for when I really may need it. T_T

Additionally, I've been feeling kind of lonely. Not in the way that the word typically means but in the way where I'm stuck living with my mother (which isn't a bad thing) and I can only see or spend time with my husband when our schedules or money allows. That being said, we don't get to see each other very often at all. We talk every day... but... I want to go out and do things with my husband, stay home and watch movies or - preferably - play games together all day. Go eat dinner together; cheap or high class, I could care less. I just feel STUCK by working all the time and not really being able to enjoy the benefits of working so much or so hard. I'm at AT&T 45 hours of the week. Usually more being that I tend to get stuck anywhere from 15 minutes up to an hour and a half after my scheduled time to leave. I don't miss working at McD's but I sure do miss the extra time I had when working there.

Blah blah blah... Scott is just being depressed and shiz and needs to vent. That tends to always be the case when I come and write a journal and let my brain spill out like a tipped glass of milk.

I shouldn't have any reason to complain... guess feeling sick just got the best of me today. Ugh~ Can I just stay home today? Please?