I screwed up and I'm scared, I can't concentrate on my art and my life is boring ... sometimes I think about just leave it all and go to the world, but I have no money and no guts to do it. My family didnt care about my art, and pushing me increasingly to graduate in medicine, but I wonder if I really want it ... and the answer is NO.
I used to think that nobody would take my soul away, but now I think I missed that, I have no inspiration for art, everything seems boring and annoying ... I do a lot of sketches every day, but they are empty, and I dont feel like to do it, my own art has lost its meaning ....
I see life through a glass case, playing video games all day and i dont have friends in real (i dont need them at all, my online friends are better than all my real friends) ... I'm waiting for something to happen, I know it will not, cause I dont do anything to make it happen, but I'm limited by my family. fuck...
And I'm lookin 'to get fucked hard!

C'MON LIFE ... GIMME EVERYTHING THAT YOU HAVE, I'M READY!