Just can't sleep. Lots of stress, work sucking hard, feeling sick, questioned the presence of some one who is not supposed to be around in a more harsh manner than i intended. Stomach churning, heart aching, mind racing.. and yet.. too cloudy to move my keys in anything productive.. hopefully sleep will come, but tonight will definitely come, and I will face being chewed out because other people on the crew I work with give less than two shits about the job and drag the rest of us down. Yes, work hard and give every ounce of strength and every drop of sweat, lose all my after work time and more sleep to getting off late just to be reamed for doing my job because some other assholes wont. Maybe.. maybe when i visit my close friends and family in about a month, maybe then i can find peace enough to sleep and rest more than just my body, but my heart and mind as I relax and visit with my two favorite kitsune, and my hen. Pardon my, I am to strike my head on my desk in hopes of losing consciousness.