That awkward moment you wake up early, cannot sleep because of one thought, part of a collective of thoughts permeating the mind, woke you up. Yeah, I know, one of those days, but I am going to make the most of it. I got to get my ducks in a row here, priorities down and yes, saying this publicly for ALL to see. But what I want from my friends and family is to be there when I fall down, maybe me scraping a couple knees and elbows along the way. I am not asking for licking of these wounds, but a reassuring hug that you are there, for me, as I would be there for you. You all are my friends, part of a big family I have grown to love, always. If I hurt any of you, I am sorry. I am not wanting lip service, nor do I want other half-hearted attempts to get to my heart and soul. Not asking for much, just pure, unadulterated honesty with me, about me. Don't go unto others to seek what you need to figure about me. Because I feel if you do that, I feel you really don't either know me that well or respect me enough. I am not wanting phone calls, texts, shouts here nor other replies to this Journal, if you have anything to say to me, even if it is to say that you dont know me well enough, just so I know and above all you know it's between you and me only- send me a note here on FurAffinity or my email address at: ( alphawolf1974 *at* yahoo.com ). I will always be a part of this fandom, will never leave, as it has ingrained itself into.. a collective part of my soul. You are part of that too. Do always remember that. I will always will be there to love in return. Just no replies here, please, send a message to me using the above methods, email and here via Note ONLY. Thank you all. You are all my inspiration, my tapestry of my life. *hugs* ~ Dumarsi Du La Quay