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Jealous
12 years ago
So I'm normally not a jealous person. I'm pretty content
with what I have in life (despite some hardships and such but that's to be expected).
But yesterday while I was at work, my mother came to bring me some lunch
(hell yeah for goulash!) and she told me that my brother had walked all the way over to
their house from this park I love in town. This park is also about a good eight to ten miles away.
HE WALKED THAT WHOLE WAY!
SERIOUSLY!
Plus another couple of miles from his apartment before that.
And that's when I realized I was kind of jealous of him that he could do that
since I certainly can't do something like that. It'd totally kill me (not literally--I'd be extremely exhausted).
Granted he was pretty exhausted I guess by time he got here and passed out on the couch sleeping for a while
but for me to try doing that.....I wouldn't even get down the street before I was exhausted.
I don't have the energy and stamina to do something like that. It's because of my health issues sadly
(for those that don't know, I have lupus which amongst other things gives me bad arthritis and
energy issues that one day I could have all sorts of energy and the next no energy to get out of bed).
I'm honestly am truly jealous of others who can go out and just sit in the sunlight and relax without getting
sick (since that's another thing I can't do anymore with just sitting and relaxing in the sun since it can cause flares).
I can't just hop on my bike and ride around the neighborhood like I used to do as a kid.
To run around and play in the sunshine. Or to just idly walk around and enjoy a nice afternoon walk.
I wish I could do that still but I can't anymore because of my health. *sighs* Though I can still get out
and still do stuff, I just have a smaller energy reserve and have to limit my exposure to being out in the sun
and such.
But on a positive note, my friends and family that do understand and still plan on doing outings and whatnot
with me, also keep an eye on me and whatnot to make sure I'm doing okay. And I love you guys for it!! ^____^
*huggles them*
with what I have in life (despite some hardships and such but that's to be expected).
But yesterday while I was at work, my mother came to bring me some lunch
(hell yeah for goulash!) and she told me that my brother had walked all the way over to
their house from this park I love in town. This park is also about a good eight to ten miles away.
HE WALKED THAT WHOLE WAY!
SERIOUSLY!
Plus another couple of miles from his apartment before that.
And that's when I realized I was kind of jealous of him that he could do that
since I certainly can't do something like that. It'd totally kill me (not literally--I'd be extremely exhausted).
Granted he was pretty exhausted I guess by time he got here and passed out on the couch sleeping for a while
but for me to try doing that.....I wouldn't even get down the street before I was exhausted.
I don't have the energy and stamina to do something like that. It's because of my health issues sadly
(for those that don't know, I have lupus which amongst other things gives me bad arthritis and
energy issues that one day I could have all sorts of energy and the next no energy to get out of bed).
I'm honestly am truly jealous of others who can go out and just sit in the sunlight and relax without getting
sick (since that's another thing I can't do anymore with just sitting and relaxing in the sun since it can cause flares).
I can't just hop on my bike and ride around the neighborhood like I used to do as a kid.
To run around and play in the sunshine. Or to just idly walk around and enjoy a nice afternoon walk.
I wish I could do that still but I can't anymore because of my health. *sighs* Though I can still get out
and still do stuff, I just have a smaller energy reserve and have to limit my exposure to being out in the sun
and such.
But on a positive note, my friends and family that do understand and still plan on doing outings and whatnot
with me, also keep an eye on me and whatnot to make sure I'm doing okay. And I love you guys for it!! ^____^
*huggles them*
