Move on.

That is what both my mom and dad said. Along with all my fur friends have been saying too. I wanna replace my last journal which feels...very childish and makes me feel bad too. I know I should move on and everyone has told me the same things. Some have been...a little bit harder than others to offer their advice. ^^; Still what you guys have done for me is helping me move on. I am trying to distract myself with some bad drawings. I know all artist say it takes time, patience and effort to make things possible. Especially if you want to become a fantastic artist like I see all around the fandom. Its hard, frustrating and takes a long time to work this gift out. I had some scratch paper and a small charcoal and sketch set that was supposed to be used for an online video game design course while I was stationed in England but that fell thru due to how unmoved I was and how distracted I was as well. There was no way I was gonna accomplish that course so paying for it now. Anyways sorry for the slight distraction but yeah probably gonna scan it and scrap it along with some other doodles I wanna destroy and burn. Video games help me out too. Music lifts me up too. Listening to some good music brings me up too. Also studying. I have gotta study for my CDCs the AF has thrown on me. I know they are important. Hell no one will let me take other courses until these damn things are done.

Another set of updates involes my left ankle. This is the 3rd week its in pain. I been a trooper and done my best with a Walmart ankle brace after a 3 mile run the squadron does every Tuesday morning, taking some tips from the nurses who said to not bother with a visit from a doctor as its not serious, and getting advice from my supervisor which I can sum up to her saying, "Oh I dont want you to call the clinic again Alonely. I believe your faking it for attention and to get away with your PT test coming up soon."
Yeah me and her do NOT get along well. Thankfully she is leaving for a another base in Germany but in November. Seriously I wish it was Nov already.

My point with all this talking is that I am doing ok. Not great but not bad either. I am recovering. Still trying to hold my head up high. Talking to all of you guys as best as possible and remembering to not bottle things up no more. So my apologies for all this wall of txt here but happy to write it out I guess.