*sigh* i heavily tried to resist the urge to write this journal but i just feel like to maybe feel better. It's been hard for me to find a mate and everytime I try sure it last for a while but most of the time I feel like I try way to hard or that sometimes i feel I don;t try hard enough. Sometimes i feel like i'm way to clingy and sometimes a little moody but mostly i think it it sometimes my wishful thinking that might be the problem like I do wait sometimes to ask like what would happen if we moved in together and stuff like that. I sometimes get a little a head of myself and look toward the future a little too quickly. And I have found a mate a couple times both who lived farther away then I did like, I do sometimes miss that relationship. I don't know if i will ever get over my last relationship as they did mean a lot to me and they always knew that ever time we talked when we could on skype. To me, I think a lot of my break ups where my fault...is there something wrong with me that i'm thinking that or even putting this out here for people to see. I don't know if I'll ever find somone who cares about me....Or will love me...*sighs*