Lately I've been hard to reach, I've been too long on my own
Everybody has a private world where they can be alone
Are you calling me? Are you trying to get through?
Are you reaching out for me, like I'm reaching out for you?

I'm just so fuckin' depressed, I just can't seem to get out this slump
If I could just get over this hump
But I need something to pull me out this dump,
I took my bruises, took my lumps
Fell down and I got right back up
But I need that spark to get psyched back up
In order for me to pick this pen back up
I don't know how or why or when I ended up in this position I'm in
I'm starting to feel decent again
In my shoes, just to see
What it's like, to be me
I'll be you, let's trade shoes
Just to see what it'd be like to
Feel your pain, you feel mine
Go inside each other's minds
Just to see what we find
Look at shit through each other's eyes....
I guess we would have to walk a mile
In each other's shoes, at least
What size you wear? I wear nines
Let's see if you can fit your feet
If Grandma could see me now I know she'd be proud
Somewhere in me deep down there's something in me she found
That made her believe in me now no one can beat me now
you knew I'd come out of this slump rise from these ashes
Come right back on they asses and go Mike Tyson on these bastards... Matter of fact it was just the other night had another dream about you
You told me to get up I got up I spread my wings and I flew
You gave me a reason to fight I was on my way to see you
You told me Taylor you're not, laying on that table I knew
I was gonna make it soon as you said think of Wade and WPF I knew
There wasn't no way that I was gonna ever leave them again
Not many are lucky enough to have a guardian angel like you
Lord I'm so thankful, please don't think that I don't feel grateful, I do
Just grant me the strength that I need for one more day to get through..its no time to take a bow

It's a little too late to say that you're sorry now
You kicked me when I was down
But what you say just That's right bitch
And I don't need you
Don't want to see you
Ha, bitch you get no love
You showed me nothing but hate
You ran me into the ground
But what comes around goes around
<b>I'm alive again</b>
More alive than I have been in my whole entire life
I can see these fur's ears perk up as I walk in I ain't never giving in again
Caution to the wind, complete freedom
In the place all the way to the parking lot, fellow
Set fire to my life and ignite the crowd...You can see the sparks from hot metal
Cold-hearted from the day I Bogarted the game
And you can never break my stride
You never slow the momentum at any moment I'm about to blow
You'll never take my pride
Killing the flow, slow venom and the opponent
Is getting no mercy, mark my words
Ain't letting up, relentless
I smell blood, I don't give a fuck: keep giving them hell
Where was you when I fell and needed help up?
You get no loveYeah, it's been a ride
I guess I had to, go to that place, to get to this one
Now some of you, might still be in that place
If you're trying to get out, just follow me
I'll get you there
<b>I'm not afraid
To take a stand</b>
Come take my hand (come take my hand)
We'll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just letting you know that you're not alone
Follow if you feel like you've been down the same road
Thought I had it mapped out but I guess I didn't, this fucking black cloud
Still follows me around but it's time to exorcise these demons
These motherfuckers are doing jumping jacks now!

And I just can't keep living this way
So starting today, I'm breaking out of this cage
I'm standing up, I'ma face my demons
I'm manning up, I'ma hold my ground
I've had enough, now I'm so fed up
Time to put my life back together right now!
I'd shoot for the moon but I'm too busy gazing at stars.....
Because I'm not creative enough to compose my own song I used Eminem song's that truely mean alot to me and I can relate too. Its true the other night i was thinking suicide and My great grandma vistied me in my dream telling me to not and she told me to think about wade and my Furends. I'm back and into the fandom I'm still all dead on the inside and im still suffering but im well enough to return to my familly my REAL family..If it wasnt for my boyfriend wade  furrylover117 he tried his hardest to keep me smiling and he did i really appreciate it. I still sometimes get depressed here and there but not as much anymore. (love you wadey) I also like to thank Kira who also helped me out.  kira~whitepaw Ive been through alot of depression and thoughts of suicide at one point i didnt want to have anything to do with furrys then i would stay up at night crying myself to sleep i went through withdrawell,relaspe and now recovery im not 110% but getting there. Im hoping to head to comic-con with  himan3214 but im as broke as can be (money wise). Anyways I don't want to rant on about this no more what got me depressed is a different story so ta-ta for now
Love your little birdy/foxy,
Onix Angel