I'm back again. Because it seems whenever things fall apart in my life, I drift back here.

Katie left me a year ago. Now she's dating a guy TWICE her age. And blaming me for the WHOLE breakup.
I tried my fucking best, man..... With a long distance relationship, there's issues inherent. Mine was apparently, I fought TOO hard to keep it together. I was TOO intense. Which, okay, fine, I'll give her that. But saying I flipped out over NOTHING?!
She dealt with TWO threats of rape, by SCHOOLMATES. Bastards getting handsy, and she even punched a guy for it. HOW AM I NOT SUPPOSED TO BE?

I don't even care anymore. I don't. Another failed relationship because "I'm too intense." Fine.

I need to do MORE rewrites now. Cause I left in her character because, for some APPARENTLY RETARDED REASON, I thought WE could get back together again. So, I need to erase all traces of Faviela. Because I'm not dealing with IP issues down the line. She doesn't even consider herself a furry, but I'm not giving her the opportunity.

I'm drinking regularly now. I have to now. Pain in my whole body at work, and pain from everything else, demands it. I don't mind. Better than popping more pain relievers than you're supposed to anyways, just to TRY and deal with the body pain, but it NEVER FUCKING HELPS. ONLY WITH THE HEADACHES THAT JUST SIT AND GNAW AT MY BRAIN.