I dont like posting things let alone anything personal but right now I have soo much rage and noone to talk about it with...

So I went to the VA shrink today and we talked about my life in the military. I told her about how hard it was for me to identify with the people I was stationed with and how I was treated like crap where I was stationed by my co workers and superiors, mainly because I did not womanize and on top of that because I wasnt straight. I also spoke to her about how I had to terminate a relationship I had for 4 years to try to appear normal and for myself to feel better about it. Then she asked if i have ever been in a relationship with anyone male or female since then. The answer was no. She then asked me how I identify, and I told her that I dont feel straight or gay, because I dont have any interest in anything. Long story short, and several tears later, she comes up with the conclusion that I was sexually traumatized through psychological torment. The conclusion of this is that I hate things even more, and she says it may take still a longer time to fix all the damage done... But she did atleast let me know why I never feel comfortable about anything around anyone. And atleast now I know for sure why I have been alone.