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TRADES & REQUESTS: CLOSED | COMMISSIONS: INQUIRE | COLLABS: CLOSED | PROJECTS: NONE| Whats going on with Me =0
Hi, all. How have you been? Me? I am working on returning to the net...sorta. I mean. I have to really organize my time better. Include some free time for myself. My free time enjoyments include exercise (now, lol. Pushing my body past it's limits helps me deal with my stress and anxiety.) Gaming, Netflix, RPing, Sketching, and reading. For the past few months, I rarely have had that time. (Note 'socializing' was not part of my fav pastimes...LOL! Yeah. Lost a friend or two due to that...but, it wasn't that great a friendship. You should not be afraid to be yourself in a friendship. Nor should you feel you have to stand behind that friend if you know they are not right or doing something you don't approve of.)
Anyway. Look, the babbler is making a comeback XD
Now then. Coming back to all the social/art places, I will need to try to work out a time for such things. 24 hours is not enough. I s'pose people are curious about what I have been getting myself into. Well...I won't tell all the gritty details, but here is a decent summary.
Work: Well. I have worked a month and a half nonstop without a day off and due to the job itself, I was slowly loosing my mind. I mean, I have worked 3 jobs at once, most of you know that. So working without a day off for so long didn't phase me. It was just the lack of scene change. Dealing with the customers bull everyday =A=! The same stupid questions, the same bad attitudes! I even had a sore throat for a week because I had to keep repeating myself and raising my voice because the people feel they DON'T have to turn their radio down to hear me. What. The. Hell.
Anywho. Now. We have lost 3 people. One was fired for stealing money. One went on maternity leave for 3 months. And one resigned out of the blue after working for 10 years. What does this mean? I, being the most reliable, have shouldered the weight of the loss by filling in all random positions. How did I get a break today? Well. My head supervisor took pity on me. The second supervisor actually wanted me to work. Also I will be taking the role of one of the secondary supervisors (again) tomorrow. Yes. I have been doing supervisor work due to being such an awesome friggin' employee. =|
I have also been spending my free time searching for another job. Why, you ask? The overtime should be doing me just fine? Nope. All the overtime I put in....I managed $800.00 bucks. Living on my own, I am still caring for my mom and burdening her...well, burdens. So, it is not enough. I mean. I almost got evicted because I used my rent money to help her. So. I need to get a graveyard shift job. Working all night would be easier since my day schedule is just a mess.
Family: My oldest brother and his wife were put out. They lost their house. And moved in with mom. Mom is now a never ending ball of stress because my sister in law is a bitch. It's a long compex story of how mom and those two have clashed through the years. My dear brother is such a loyal husband that his evil wife, who put him in so much financial strife, gets away with any and everything. Right now my mother is pissed that they are not paying her the rents they discussed. $300.00 bucks a month. (I paid $400.00...) they are only gving her $200.00. When they feel like it.
My middle brother beat his girlfriend for talking back to him after she found out he was cheating on her with two other girls. This girlfriend gave up her children to their father and moved from virginia to georgia to be with him. Bought him a car, paid the rent, and bills, supported him while he went to barber school. Yeah. My middle bro is a douche. It bothered his chick that I wouldn't open up to her. But I couldn't bring myself to tell her that there was no point because she wouldn't last. I was right. As usual. So I wasn't so surprised about this.
There is so much more. Just no that everyone looks to the blacksheep (me) for all sorts of support. It got to me once, but I didn't break. I might be close to breaking...at least, I think I am, but I don't feel like I am. I just keep going one day at a time.
Me: While working. I found a lil 2 or 3 week old kitten and took her in. I hate her more, everyday. I bottle fed her, and helped her potty, and now she is a vibrant, hard food eatting, litter using, pain in the ass. Tate HATED her. Now she tolerates the little pain. And I know Tate is still pissed at me for bringing her in. I named the kitten Mocha and call her Mo for short. But there is something about her personality that makes me want to flush her down the toilet. When I first brought her in, Tate pitched a fit and went into her kennel and refused to come out for 3 days. When she did, all I kept getting were dirty looks. THEN, when I try to give Mo some love, Tate would intervine.
Home life is hectic. I need to find Mo a new home and soon.
I haven't rped for a few weeks. That was like the BIGGEST stress relief for me and I have been feeling on edge from lack of it. I met a cool guy when I first introduced Lin, WAAAYYYYYY Back when. I developed a crush on him, but he has a girlfriend. He was everything I looked for in a guy. EVERYTHING. Still is, kinda. A bit sensative for my taste, but still....he is a god. Sadly his chick and he broke up recently. It hurts my heart, his pain....
I also met someone through rp. Um...it was really strange. It was like we were dating but we weren't. It was a stressful relationship. It lasted about 3 weeks before it ended abruptly. Psychotic really. Although, when it was over, a lot of stress left my chest. I kinda miss him, but I know it's for the best for both of us.
I want a relationship (romantically) but I know I am not ready for one. I have a lot of stuff to deal with within myself. I am not financially or physically ready. Nor am I emotionally (even though its been 3 years now...). It's kinda difficult for me to deside what I should do about it. Date or no date. I mean, If I did date it wouldn't be for anything serious, so does that make me a jerk? You know...wanting to have fun for once instead of jumping into a serious and committed relationship?
I am really socially awkward and blunty honest, yet damned loyal. However, it's hard for people to grasp that...I AM socially awkward. I do go through long terms without being around. It's hard to keep friends like that, especially over the net. It's like they demand you be around ALL the time. But I just can't. I would love to have friends that understand I am always there for them, even if I am not always there. I do love them, even if I come off as a bit of a jerk, bitch, or asshole. I mean...I ave some. Like Keira-jo, Dark, Brittany, and Belmont. It's a comforting thought. I just wish more people would understand and not take it so personal when I dissapear for a few days...or months (heh). Or if I don't talk as much...-sigh-
Whatever the case. I haven't been drawing for a while, but I am sketching more these days. I hope to refill my gallery with some decent stuff. Right now I am recoloring Keira-Jo's commission. I feel like a dick that it took so long =A=.
I'm sorry.
I want me some rp. Reality is 'great' and everything. But meh. Rp inspires my art. Oh. I HAVE been gaming at work. I have been playing monster hunter. Only reason I was able to get it was because of price drops. I fuggin' love that game. Birthday cash in. From Dark, mostly.
I have Harvest moon, monster hunter, pokemon dungeon, project x-zone, and harmo knight (or whatever its called.) So yes. Gaming bomb! I just wish I had someone to play with, ya know. Especially monster hunter and animal crossings. Man...I haven't played animal crossing in some time....all that hard work on my flowers....XD Ah well. Also the new games for the mii plaza on the 3ds are damned cute and fun, too. I find myself spending play coins more so I am not hordeing my coins anymore. lol XD
I am also looking forward to getting my hands on Pokemon X. Dude. It comes out worldwide on a SATURDAY!!!! I am NOT working that day. At all. I am going to be up bright and early and get my hands on that copy and shut myself in my home. (No calls, please XD) and I am going to burn the hell out of that game. It would be awesome if they made it more MMOish, ya know...play the story with at least one other friend. Local AND Wifi. More customization would be nice, too. I am not really all that excited about the mega-evolutions. It just seems lazy. =/
Health: Um....I was back in the hospital due to my diabetes. I passed out...my sugar was high as hell. They couldn't bring it down with the 4 bags of insulin pumped into me. My mentality was like...fine. If I die, I die, but I won't be in this friggin' hospital. I walked. And I was fine. I mean. I have been in hospitals all my life. I was just sick of it. I KNOW I have to do better with my health, but that is a struggle. My mom has been pressuring me to get disability or something, and I don't want to do that. I rather rely on myself than take tax payers money for something that I need to deal with. I mean, As long as I can work, I will be able to take care of what is important.
Although eating healthy...or eating at all is a daily struggle, excercising is, at least, helping. I have some meds, but not all. I need to get them ASAP, and I plan on it when I get the money and my mom doesn't need to constantly borrow, or have me pay a bill, or put gas in her van.
School: Due to bad timing, health issues, and work. I dropped out. I plan on returning in the early months of next year. I know what to expect from the collage, and I feel like I need to pull myself together a bit more before dedicating myself to studies. I hope to have better transportation, a better work schedule, and my health in better order. Wish me luck.
WELL. My life is a tome that I do not plan on writing. So much has been going on, that is just a small spread of jelly on the giant burnt piece of toast that is my life, LOL. So, yeah. That's a bit of what's been going on.
Leave a comment and tell me how you have been doing because....-nukes all that stuff again.-
Read it, Live by it -> http://sigilgoat.livejournal.com/45567.html
Updates
Nothing new~
FA Stuff/Projects:
~ Remixing my Main character. Just revamping old with some new and recycling my already used stuff. Having a project makes my empty life somewhat filling.
~ Been revamping my F-List profile. You can see it here:
http://www.f-list.net/c/Akiriuu
Love you guys!
~Riuu-chan
Hi, all. How have you been? Me? I am working on returning to the net...sorta. I mean. I have to really organize my time better. Include some free time for myself. My free time enjoyments include exercise (now, lol. Pushing my body past it's limits helps me deal with my stress and anxiety.) Gaming, Netflix, RPing, Sketching, and reading. For the past few months, I rarely have had that time. (Note 'socializing' was not part of my fav pastimes...LOL! Yeah. Lost a friend or two due to that...but, it wasn't that great a friendship. You should not be afraid to be yourself in a friendship. Nor should you feel you have to stand behind that friend if you know they are not right or doing something you don't approve of.)
Anyway. Look, the babbler is making a comeback XD
Now then. Coming back to all the social/art places, I will need to try to work out a time for such things. 24 hours is not enough. I s'pose people are curious about what I have been getting myself into. Well...I won't tell all the gritty details, but here is a decent summary.
Work: Well. I have worked a month and a half nonstop without a day off and due to the job itself, I was slowly loosing my mind. I mean, I have worked 3 jobs at once, most of you know that. So working without a day off for so long didn't phase me. It was just the lack of scene change. Dealing with the customers bull everyday =A=! The same stupid questions, the same bad attitudes! I even had a sore throat for a week because I had to keep repeating myself and raising my voice because the people feel they DON'T have to turn their radio down to hear me. What. The. Hell.
Anywho. Now. We have lost 3 people. One was fired for stealing money. One went on maternity leave for 3 months. And one resigned out of the blue after working for 10 years. What does this mean? I, being the most reliable, have shouldered the weight of the loss by filling in all random positions. How did I get a break today? Well. My head supervisor took pity on me. The second supervisor actually wanted me to work. Also I will be taking the role of one of the secondary supervisors (again) tomorrow. Yes. I have been doing supervisor work due to being such an awesome friggin' employee. =|
I have also been spending my free time searching for another job. Why, you ask? The overtime should be doing me just fine? Nope. All the overtime I put in....I managed $800.00 bucks. Living on my own, I am still caring for my mom and burdening her...well, burdens. So, it is not enough. I mean. I almost got evicted because I used my rent money to help her. So. I need to get a graveyard shift job. Working all night would be easier since my day schedule is just a mess.
Family: My oldest brother and his wife were put out. They lost their house. And moved in with mom. Mom is now a never ending ball of stress because my sister in law is a bitch. It's a long compex story of how mom and those two have clashed through the years. My dear brother is such a loyal husband that his evil wife, who put him in so much financial strife, gets away with any and everything. Right now my mother is pissed that they are not paying her the rents they discussed. $300.00 bucks a month. (I paid $400.00...) they are only gving her $200.00. When they feel like it.
My middle brother beat his girlfriend for talking back to him after she found out he was cheating on her with two other girls. This girlfriend gave up her children to their father and moved from virginia to georgia to be with him. Bought him a car, paid the rent, and bills, supported him while he went to barber school. Yeah. My middle bro is a douche. It bothered his chick that I wouldn't open up to her. But I couldn't bring myself to tell her that there was no point because she wouldn't last. I was right. As usual. So I wasn't so surprised about this.
There is so much more. Just no that everyone looks to the blacksheep (me) for all sorts of support. It got to me once, but I didn't break. I might be close to breaking...at least, I think I am, but I don't feel like I am. I just keep going one day at a time.
Me: While working. I found a lil 2 or 3 week old kitten and took her in. I hate her more, everyday. I bottle fed her, and helped her potty, and now she is a vibrant, hard food eatting, litter using, pain in the ass. Tate HATED her. Now she tolerates the little pain. And I know Tate is still pissed at me for bringing her in. I named the kitten Mocha and call her Mo for short. But there is something about her personality that makes me want to flush her down the toilet. When I first brought her in, Tate pitched a fit and went into her kennel and refused to come out for 3 days. When she did, all I kept getting were dirty looks. THEN, when I try to give Mo some love, Tate would intervine.
Home life is hectic. I need to find Mo a new home and soon.
I haven't rped for a few weeks. That was like the BIGGEST stress relief for me and I have been feeling on edge from lack of it. I met a cool guy when I first introduced Lin, WAAAYYYYYY Back when. I developed a crush on him, but he has a girlfriend. He was everything I looked for in a guy. EVERYTHING. Still is, kinda. A bit sensative for my taste, but still....he is a god. Sadly his chick and he broke up recently. It hurts my heart, his pain....
I also met someone through rp. Um...it was really strange. It was like we were dating but we weren't. It was a stressful relationship. It lasted about 3 weeks before it ended abruptly. Psychotic really. Although, when it was over, a lot of stress left my chest. I kinda miss him, but I know it's for the best for both of us.
I want a relationship (romantically) but I know I am not ready for one. I have a lot of stuff to deal with within myself. I am not financially or physically ready. Nor am I emotionally (even though its been 3 years now...). It's kinda difficult for me to deside what I should do about it. Date or no date. I mean, If I did date it wouldn't be for anything serious, so does that make me a jerk? You know...wanting to have fun for once instead of jumping into a serious and committed relationship?
I am really socially awkward and blunty honest, yet damned loyal. However, it's hard for people to grasp that...I AM socially awkward. I do go through long terms without being around. It's hard to keep friends like that, especially over the net. It's like they demand you be around ALL the time. But I just can't. I would love to have friends that understand I am always there for them, even if I am not always there. I do love them, even if I come off as a bit of a jerk, bitch, or asshole. I mean...I ave some. Like Keira-jo, Dark, Brittany, and Belmont. It's a comforting thought. I just wish more people would understand and not take it so personal when I dissapear for a few days...or months (heh). Or if I don't talk as much...-sigh-
Whatever the case. I haven't been drawing for a while, but I am sketching more these days. I hope to refill my gallery with some decent stuff. Right now I am recoloring Keira-Jo's commission. I feel like a dick that it took so long =A=.
I'm sorry.
I want me some rp. Reality is 'great' and everything. But meh. Rp inspires my art. Oh. I HAVE been gaming at work. I have been playing monster hunter. Only reason I was able to get it was because of price drops. I fuggin' love that game. Birthday cash in. From Dark, mostly.
I have Harvest moon, monster hunter, pokemon dungeon, project x-zone, and harmo knight (or whatever its called.) So yes. Gaming bomb! I just wish I had someone to play with, ya know. Especially monster hunter and animal crossings. Man...I haven't played animal crossing in some time....all that hard work on my flowers....XD Ah well. Also the new games for the mii plaza on the 3ds are damned cute and fun, too. I find myself spending play coins more so I am not hordeing my coins anymore. lol XD
I am also looking forward to getting my hands on Pokemon X. Dude. It comes out worldwide on a SATURDAY!!!! I am NOT working that day. At all. I am going to be up bright and early and get my hands on that copy and shut myself in my home. (No calls, please XD) and I am going to burn the hell out of that game. It would be awesome if they made it more MMOish, ya know...play the story with at least one other friend. Local AND Wifi. More customization would be nice, too. I am not really all that excited about the mega-evolutions. It just seems lazy. =/
Health: Um....I was back in the hospital due to my diabetes. I passed out...my sugar was high as hell. They couldn't bring it down with the 4 bags of insulin pumped into me. My mentality was like...fine. If I die, I die, but I won't be in this friggin' hospital. I walked. And I was fine. I mean. I have been in hospitals all my life. I was just sick of it. I KNOW I have to do better with my health, but that is a struggle. My mom has been pressuring me to get disability or something, and I don't want to do that. I rather rely on myself than take tax payers money for something that I need to deal with. I mean, As long as I can work, I will be able to take care of what is important.
Although eating healthy...or eating at all is a daily struggle, excercising is, at least, helping. I have some meds, but not all. I need to get them ASAP, and I plan on it when I get the money and my mom doesn't need to constantly borrow, or have me pay a bill, or put gas in her van.
School: Due to bad timing, health issues, and work. I dropped out. I plan on returning in the early months of next year. I know what to expect from the collage, and I feel like I need to pull myself together a bit more before dedicating myself to studies. I hope to have better transportation, a better work schedule, and my health in better order. Wish me luck.
WELL. My life is a tome that I do not plan on writing. So much has been going on, that is just a small spread of jelly on the giant burnt piece of toast that is my life, LOL. So, yeah. That's a bit of what's been going on.
Leave a comment and tell me how you have been doing because....-nukes all that stuff again.-
Read it, Live by it -> http://sigilgoat.livejournal.com/45567.html
Updates
Nothing new~
FA Stuff/Projects:
~ Remixing my Main character. Just revamping old with some new and recycling my already used stuff. Having a project makes my empty life somewhat filling.
~ Been revamping my F-List profile. You can see it here:
http://www.f-list.net/c/Akiriuu
Love you guys!
~Riuu-chan
I think something good is waiting for me over the horizon. I just have to get to it.
I'm glad to see you back and be able to talk to you again, too! Besides through SwapNotes...I have a fun work tale to share with you sometime as well. *wry laugh*
Can't wait to play with you!!!! <3
Me too! Since I'll have both versions and be happy to BRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEED stuffs...let me know if you need any of da version exclusives not in your game!