ah oct, once my favorite month of the year as both my bday (the 24th) and halloween are in it. that all changed 2 years ago when i had my life hit reset button thanks to some guy in a pickup who could nt be bothered to watch where he was driving... from there it spiraled onto near homelessness and i lost my grandfather to emphazima beforei could make it back to ky. last year wasnt much better though by no meens = to that disaster and i have been scraping by ever since. well this time something good actualy happened to go with the bad. I managed to get closer to a couple of friends and make some new ones and even better i reconnected with and old friend and before i knew it i had a girlfriend.
now the i have to ask myself this fun question... will this year go better... am i truly going to be allowed to be happy?

well here's hoping

heh ironically i only started keeping these journals at all because of my escapade in Florida despite it being completely against my nature.