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Unforgiven 3 (IF you know me. Read this. it's important. )
17 years ago
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If i had shoes! THEY WOULD GO HERE
To grow into your own
I’ve been thinking a lot, and I know, that’s not normally my style but nonetheless I have been thinking and the main question I ask myself is: Why do I keep coming back online, what is my actual purpose for doing it? I keep asking myself that every night and I can never get a solid answer, no matter how much logic I use, and frankly it makes sense. I pour my heart and soul into the music I write and barely get any type of recognition, I use to be able to write but frankly the internet has numbed my brain down so bad that I can barely put two sentences together that don’t have to do with either war, death, pain, or suffering, and that’s not who I am. I’m broke and I have to depend on handouts from friends to barely scrape by. And on top of that is a problem on an even more personal level.
So! I’ve come to the conclusion that I’m going to pull myself from a bulk of the online communities that I frequent. I’m also going to delete every scrap of porn that I have on every computer I own. I’m going to start writing again, music lyrics and poetry, and I’m going to get a job, so I can pay back everyone that helped me, and support myself. So, don’t expect me to be on IRC for a long while, Off scale, furnet, City of unity, It’s been fun but I need to work on my life for awhile, I may comeback when things are looking up for me, but don’t expect me On IRC channels before then. Although I will be on my instant messengers and I will check my Fa regularly.
-Sirri-
PS. I’m going to start going by Dj now, Sirri as a name is impersonal and I’m starting to hate it now.
-Dj-
I’ve been thinking a lot, and I know, that’s not normally my style but nonetheless I have been thinking and the main question I ask myself is: Why do I keep coming back online, what is my actual purpose for doing it? I keep asking myself that every night and I can never get a solid answer, no matter how much logic I use, and frankly it makes sense. I pour my heart and soul into the music I write and barely get any type of recognition, I use to be able to write but frankly the internet has numbed my brain down so bad that I can barely put two sentences together that don’t have to do with either war, death, pain, or suffering, and that’s not who I am. I’m broke and I have to depend on handouts from friends to barely scrape by. And on top of that is a problem on an even more personal level.
So! I’ve come to the conclusion that I’m going to pull myself from a bulk of the online communities that I frequent. I’m also going to delete every scrap of porn that I have on every computer I own. I’m going to start writing again, music lyrics and poetry, and I’m going to get a job, so I can pay back everyone that helped me, and support myself. So, don’t expect me to be on IRC for a long while, Off scale, furnet, City of unity, It’s been fun but I need to work on my life for awhile, I may comeback when things are looking up for me, but don’t expect me On IRC channels before then. Although I will be on my instant messengers and I will check my Fa regularly.
-Sirri-
PS. I’m going to start going by Dj now, Sirri as a name is impersonal and I’m starting to hate it now.
-Dj-
I feel you, dude. I haven't been able to write anything good in a long as time. Hell, I've been writing a song for three months now, and I've got about 45 seconds of music and two lines of lyrics, "This is your last five minutes alive, so keep in mind your ideals."
I'm tapped out as well, dude.