There is a person and a conversation. The two are connected inextricably to your life past and present. You don't know when or if you'll ever have this conversation but it will always exist as an idea. Day after day the conversation fails to take shape and, well, patience, civility, that too starts to crumble with the passage of time.

Contrary to what most people would have you believe time is not the great healer. It is a variable. If you have friends, and a healthy dose of conversation then, then you can heal with time, but not without. Without it you are left alone in the pit with binoculars that amplify to flaws in these...people. People who have avoided responsibility at every turn and who are incapable of accepting their own twisted moral depravity.

Maybe this won't be an issue much longer for me. I do have a friend or two that truly matters in my life and I hope to continue communication and understanding of those people who have done nothing but be supportive. I am forever grateful to these people.

Those who have helped me know who they are. Same as I know the people who have done harm know who they are. They can do as they wish. I remain open to discussion, but I will not be bullied or put down.