Guys. Guys. GUYS...

I haven't been able to stop coughing since July. Some days it's just a cough here and there, days like today, I cough til I can barely breathe. Until I tear my throat and cough up blood. Until my head starts THROBBING like there are things bouncing around inside it. I take cough medicine and stuff to help me sleep, but it doesn't do too much good. Augh. I hate being sick. The past couple weeks have been really terrible, I had a terrible allergy attack and I think it turned into a sinus infection, and now I'm coughing up even more big globs of goo, and now it's all yellow and chunky. Oh yea. TMI, my bad. I just don't know what to do. I can't afford to go to the doctors, they'll turn me away unless I can pay the copay, and I'm in at least 10k in the hole with the hospital already, if not more. It could be a lot more, I have no idea the total amount. So yea. I just needed to vent in a space where it's not gonna be seen by my family who will really worry and probably flip shit and call me nonstop. I'm having a small meltdown right now and I don't know what to do. So yea. Well. I know what I'm gonna do. I'm gonna go lay down and hope this shit I just took helps me sleep. G'night.