I can be basically blamed for all that transpired when it comes to the Wolf. He shouldn't be the One in his crying fits but instead it should be me. I guess I never noticed that mentally im not right I guess. I still kinda believe me and him can be together but because he's doing better and my money is ultimately just helping him, not me. I just get the feeling I cant be loved at all After all that happened. I think its just safe to say that maybe I need to leave from him physically, earlier than his estimated time on when he transfers to a different base. Because honestly., I think if this goes on with me living under the same roof, im only gonna make things more awkward. Really I dont know what to do anymore when it comes to keeping even the Basic of needs like friends and your own wants in life when instead I still see myself doing what I have done in the past. Just letting others get better and not caring about myself at all. Its a real wonder how i could ever get any Love in the first place and some individuals still think I can. I think im just a mess that cant be fixed anymore and should be left in the past because of my Problems with my ADD and my Ways of thinking that the other person, be they friend or lover, should only get the attention they deserve while I hide myself away from public eyes and keep all my emotions bottled away like usual.