Seeing as I have a few commissions on my plate which will likely take some time to get around to, I figured it would be a good idea to write this journal to give a heads up as to what's been happening - some of you may already know through following my Twitter.

During the past few days, I have experienced severe panic attacks. I have made a total of five trips to the hospital because of how utterly debilitating the symptoms were. The attacks would last hours, and sometimes I'd have two of these in a single day.

All physical tests came out clean, and eventually it was concluded as being psychological. Once I was properly evaluated by a psychiatrist, I was diagnosed with "severe anxiety with a little depression and OCD". I've been prescribed two medications - Clonazepam and Seroxat. The first will only be for a few weeks, the second for around six or so months starting today, ideally... Which means that factored in with talk therapy, they are estimating a recovery time of six months.

Clonazepam has done a good job at keeping my anxiety at bay so far, and thankfully I am not experiencing harsh side effects apart from temporary desensitization, slower motor control and cold hands.

It is too early to call how this will affect me as days progress, and I still have no clear idea as to how this might affect my ability to draw.

I will likely need some time to adjust to those medications, so to those who talk to me frequently - please bear with me if I am not responsive, seem irritated, or whatever. To those whom I owe a commission, please let me know if you would rather have a refund and I will be more than happy to oblige.

Thank you for your understanding,
-S