I know it's sad that I'm posting this in an FA journal, but I need a place to let out how I'm feeling right now. So if you don't want to read my whining here is the warning so you don't have to deal with it.

I really want to be a better person, want my life to be something worthwhile. But damn it all if something doesn't show up right in front of me every time and tear open the wounds I've tried so hard to heal and set me back in my emotional growth. I want to be a happier person but my mind tends to dwell on things that I can't help nor can I change.

Every time I think I've made any progress something happens and it all evaporates and I'm left feeling just as bad as before and I'm sick of it.