Hello there,

To say that I've been innactive recently would be an understatement.

Ever since I joined FA in 2007, I have been the lurkiest of mother-effers, appart from the brief periods when I took commissions.

Despite my lack of updates though, I have still kept my 6 year vigil, of checking this site at least once a week (but usually a couple of times a day), and faving and commenting at random.

Hilariously, I'm a bit of an extrovert irl (although I do get tired when in groups of people for extended periods of time), but online I'm finding that I have gotten more and more introverted and speaking to people a lot less, in fear that I will offend or be offended. I also don't really use any chat programmes apart from the FB one and Googlechat.

I've taken small steps to open up by adding peeps on fb as friends and liking ther pages such as :userlilliosa: :usermalkyru: :userwoogle: :userkyoht: :usernovelteeth: to name but a few. But still, I'm watching, and I'm not uploading.

I'm very excited about my personal sewing project, I really want to share it online but am afraid of theft or ridicule. I am scared that if I sold one of my finished products someone could tear it apart and copy my sewing patterns, having them made enmasse so that I've done all that work for nothing.
I know that sounds crazy, but it wouldn't bother me so much if I didn't have such a hard time getting work. A lot of my problems come from my own insecuritie (I just wrote a massive Teel Deer about it, but decided to delete it as it was too self-pitying), but for the most part, it's because of a lack of CAD work in my portfolio. I should really work on that, but right now, I am so invested in this project.

I want you all to see it so badly,

What would be the best way to show you it?

Lou