To spare you the reading I'm not going to go into a huge sobstory, but I've been going through a lot of changes with my life, and I am trying to change for the better, and not just in an artistic/commission sense. I've been slacking and I've been really shitty and unprofessional, and I know that completely. I bit off way more than I could chew, and I'm paying for it. I've got to dig myself out, and so far, I'm slowly but steadily doing that. I have reduced my queue down to the last handful. I have been chipping away at it, and the only new commissions I take on are small ones that get completed the moment I get them, namely the bouncy head ones. I know it's bad practice, but in my mind a mere 10 minute icon will not hurt. It is 10 minutes that I could be using towards a bigger commission that I owe, I understand that, but sorry to say I'm going to do what I'm going to do.

I appreciate how you're being more calm about this. In your husband's words, trying to 'ruin me by digging up dirt' seemed a little strong for simply doing something he didn't agree with in my opinion. I understand it's morally wrong and he felt strongly against it, but it just seemed to be a little severe. I'm not knocking on him, I respect his opinions completely don't get me wrong, but I'm trying to be civil with you and I think it'd be nice it if it is kept that way on both ends. Were all adults here, after all. It is your life though, so you can do as you please, and I'm truly not being sarcastic about that. Anyway, I also appreciate your criticism, and I do mean that sincerely. I'm going through a lot right now, and I'd prefer to leave all of that undisclosed if that's alright with you, but it's been taking a toll on me and I know I'm making others suffer which is shitty. I know I'm not being fair or professional, but ultimately, I'm human. I fucked up and I know I'll never be perfect. The damage is done though, so I've just got to roll with the punches, sort out the consequences and rectify anything else that I can.

i know you probably won't see this but seeing as i can't respond back to you. i'm glad you're being honest about this and admitting you fucked up. i'd say hold off on taking any more commissions so you can finish the ones you have. it's more important to give people what they want rather than you getting more money out of it. honestly i know it's rude but it's the truth. anyways. glad you were honest about it and my hubby says he's sorry. he tends to get fired up about business practices. :/

It's totally understandable, I accept his apology 100% and I'll unblock you. I was just a little ticked about the other journal and didn't want things escalating. And It's not rude, it really is the truth and I should be doing that. I'm just hoping we can stop the hostility between us, too.

i don't think we can be friends but i don't want hostility. i just like seeing people get what they pay for c: and it makes me feel icky when i don't see that. especially when people are asking so nicely about it. i do hope to see you working hard at it and i hope you're able to get them done in a timely manner. again, i apologize on the dragon's behalf, he's quite hot tempered and quick to make angsty journals :V