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Kinda depressing if you think about it...
12 years ago
There really isn't anything coming up that I'm looking forward to.
Like, at all.
Halloween? Couldn't care less this year, which is totally sad.
My birthday? Usually it's just a lot of work (normally) and a lot of let downs.
(Really the only perk I can see for my bday this year is getting to hang out with
Temperance and some other furs)
Brand new plant / workplace? Oh god it's going to take me FOREVER to get to and from work now. I just fucking hate driving in rush hour so much D:
Christmas? God that's going to be a lot of work, a lot of fuss and a lot of frustration.
I couldn't care less at this point. Especially with the date looming (you say "but Yann, it's still nearly two months away!" But I'm supposed to be hand-making or Re-gifting this year. Ugh)
New Years? As IF anything ever goes on or happens. I just end up going to bed at flippin 10 cuz I'm bored and depressed. Year after year.
Fan-tastic.
I just ddoooonnn't care.
Le sigh.
Pathetic.
Like, at all.
Halloween? Couldn't care less this year, which is totally sad.
My birthday? Usually it's just a lot of work (normally) and a lot of let downs.
(Really the only perk I can see for my bday this year is getting to hang out with
Temperance and some other furs)Brand new plant / workplace? Oh god it's going to take me FOREVER to get to and from work now. I just fucking hate driving in rush hour so much D:
Christmas? God that's going to be a lot of work, a lot of fuss and a lot of frustration.
I couldn't care less at this point. Especially with the date looming (you say "but Yann, it's still nearly two months away!" But I'm supposed to be hand-making or Re-gifting this year. Ugh)
New Years? As IF anything ever goes on or happens. I just end up going to bed at flippin 10 cuz I'm bored and depressed. Year after year.
Fan-tastic.
I just ddoooonnn't care.
Le sigh.
Pathetic.
*hugs* I know how yea feel though. v-v
I am here for yea :3
I have been there. I'll probably go there again. Nevertheless, I find that when I get down I just have to shut away the future for a little bit and focus on the here and now. You can't get hung up on what the next couple of months will be like. The mind has a way to take our thoughts/feelings and make it reality. It is almost like a self fulfilling prophesy. If you keep thinking that something bad will happen, it will because you have mentally set it up to happen.
I know that there people that care for you, they respond to every post you put up. Don't think how cruddy something may be and think of the awesome time you will get to spend with Temperance. Find a way to make the drive to work more enjoyable. When I was teaching I had a position on the extreme north part of Edmonton and I lived in the far south (this is pre ring road). It would take me 35 minute if I was lucky and an hour if not to get to work and I was going against the flow of traffic. I started listening to audio books that I borrowed from the library. I listened to all of Orsen Scott Card's Ender/Bean/Peter sagas. It took almost entire school year to get through them all and to this day I still miss driving and listening to one of those books. You need to find a way to spin these events into something positive or they will become negative.
Not knowing when your birthday is I will wish you a very merry unbirthday for today. Take care Yann!
*looks into the empty ice cream pail... Something to add to the shopping list*