Ok so.. i have figured out a few things. One i can be a bit melowdramatic about stuff when things happen :/. Two all i can think about are furries/ just the fandom in genral. I also went to see a therapist, no im not crazy, you dont need to be to see one. In fact he said that talking to crazy people dosent even help. Any way im ALLOT better and that night some shit had happend that made me question allot, but im better. I feel allot more conifident about myself and about other people which helps my shyness. So yeah :P. Also ive started drawing agean!!! I think that not having to judge myself on all the stuff i see on fa was a big problem since i had an areblock for the better part of this and last year. So expect some shitty sketches and stuff later on. I will be returning to fa and skypw butnow, i wont just focas on porn.(Well.. maby a little >:D). So.. thats what has happend for about of a week for me.

Thank you who ever took the time to read this or helped me out
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