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12 years ago
At the start of the year I was filled with so much hope. I was happy.
I believed things would finally start to get better. I believed and fought with all my heart.
I tried so hard. Soso hard.
Now I'm back to praying for death.
I don't understand why. I don't understand what I did wrong. I did eveything people told me to. I never gave up. I picked myself up and tried over and over...
Why?...
Before I die, if I must die, please give me the strength, the words, the actions to make everyone smile. All the people I love and who love me and I have touched upon and hurt. To make them laugh or cry with happiness, just once. Let me be human, just for a moment.
I believed things would finally start to get better. I believed and fought with all my heart.
I tried so hard. Soso hard.
Now I'm back to praying for death.
I don't understand why. I don't understand what I did wrong. I did eveything people told me to. I never gave up. I picked myself up and tried over and over...
Why?...
Before I die, if I must die, please give me the strength, the words, the actions to make everyone smile. All the people I love and who love me and I have touched upon and hurt. To make them laugh or cry with happiness, just once. Let me be human, just for a moment.
Don't give up.
I hope you feel better soon Fulpelt. You are a good person. I wish this depression didn't hassle you so. : <