Turns out it's my desk setup that's fucking over my hand and I need to figure out something better. not sure what I should look for in a desk, input would be very welcome. Might try some light drawing tomorrow. I'm in pain from both hand and my ovaries hating me and the gynocologist hasn't sent me the letter yet. I feel very miserable and cranky and antisocial and have spent pretty much most of my time watching documentaries. Not to mention I broke my kindle too, so I need a new one of those...forgot my pill yesterday so I'm feeling like complete worthless trash right now and am crawling around hating myself.

/bitchesssss and whinggggeeeeees

on the plus side I did go and do something like actual work the other day! I was doing bar at a fet event and it was great, and I did really well. Then someone decided to enlist me in a prank and I got super triggery and cry-y and I may not get to go back to do that thing again because the person was a manager and me and the friend who helped me get the work there are not really interested in keeping on doing it if she's still there being an asshat, but I'm glad I did a little, because maybe I'm not so useless? I just want to be able to function in normal society...