Okay, so, I still have no better pair of words to describe my gender outside of "genderqueer" AND "genderfluid". I'm not exactly one gender one day, and another the next, and I'm certainly not solidly both at any given time. It's purely situational. That being side, while my body is partly the right sort of shape (I still need to gain much more weight) I realized awhile back that my chest was not growing much at all, and this greatly upset me. Indeed, it was dysphoria. But, I lack the ability to go to a psychiatrist, I live somewhere where even if I did find one, the chances they'd understand even a binary trans*person are slim, and pretty much none with someone like myself. So, much to the dismay of some of my closer friends, I began self medicating. I'm currently not, as I'm saving up for my long term plan (six months or so) after about two months of seeing how I'd react tot he stuff. Indeed, I have much more chest than I ever had before (it's not much, but I was flat despite my weight before,) and I am very happy about it.

At any rate, my decisions were thus: 6 months on hormones, to start before the year is out. Hit 150 pounds before the end of next year. Figure out more neutral gender pronouns, I don't much mind he or her or even hir, (I rarely give my character female sexual organs, so this always amuses me,) but I have decided I prefer, "they" (she/he), "them" (her/him), and I do NOT like "it" (man/woman/boy/girl), I'm unable to find a better term, but I'd rather a gendered pronoun over "it". Herm pronouns, I don't want in particular, you can call me them, but they aren't accurate. Nor are "ze, zer, zir, zem" or however those go.