Ok. this has been bothering me for some time now, like its been almost a month now and still some of my closest friends are not my friends anymore. it all started with one of my friends saying something about a hat. yes a lame hat, now I was selling it it and, I said even to myself it was very wrong of me to sell in the first place and when she did confront me about it, I lied and and said I wasn't, and said cause, she was going send it to my other friend and I said which I am very sorry I did this, was that she was lying and I was on bad terms with. which I didn't think, I was on great terms with her in the first place cause of other things going on, but no one said anything to me about the hat and it was from her EX boyfriend, that I trough she didn't want any more. so I trough she wouldn't had cared so much about it. but I guess she did care, if she really wanted the damn hat back I would had gladly gave it back to her in the first place. I didn't sell it and took it right off after that whole thing and don't plan on doing anything with the hat, now I did call and message them saying how sorry I was but, they don't care, I'm just a little disappointed is all. I trough they were close friends and they would try and move on from something so dumb in the first place but thy blocked me from facebook, and blocked my phone number and wont even talk things out with me at all. so I'm just left in the dark. I don't know what hurts more. is the fact that I would had given the world to them, or the fact that they are already over me and replaced me with other friends and just plan on don't care about me any more. well I am very sad about this. I told them I was not good with my words on facebook at all. and I was going trough alot of hard times over this year, it sucked but just not talking to me and blocking me out of their lives. fine. if they don't want to forgive me, I can't do anything about that, I just have to lift my head up and look forward not in the past but towards a future. I'm starting to move on with my life and getting a few things done. I just wish it didn't have to end the way it did. I trough of them as sisters but I guess they didn't think of me the same way, they trough I used them? how? I talk sometimes but that all I can think of, how did I use anyone I gave stuff out and welcomed everyone to my home and let them sleep over weekends, letting them use my things at my house and I even gave some stuff away to them. like am I really a bad friend? that, they would hate me so much that, they could careless about someone like me now? am I really that bad? I have problems but who in the world doesn't have problems. and I love the fact when my other friend was fighting, with my other friend how she came to me, and started to talk to me and stayed over my house for days on end, but when its on the other foot she leaves me for dead, some friend. like is it so much trouble to just talk it out and work things out. can't we just move on from this and look to a bright and happy future? I don't hate anyone I'm just disappointed, really. but yea. I have to move on, like I'm no longer going be on facebook too much, a lot of drama I don't need goes on there, and in fact I am not going on the computer as often either which is fine with me, I'm taken a break on cosplaying and anime for right now till like Feb, and I'm getting into other things.