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12 years ago
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Hey guys, have you ever had an identity crisis?
these last days, I have feeling ill, sick and very tired ...
I am tired of school, of work, people, life and everything else, and I got stuck on my own world with music and friendly people who took me gladly, I didnt turned on the tv and neither seen any news, nothing, I simply dont know what happened in the world in the last week, but then today I started asking questions to myself, things about me, about my world and I dont know the answer
is this a weird sensation yesterday when I passed in front of the mirror and saw my reflection and I actually thought that was a little nicer, but today when I saw the same reflection I just thought,'' is that? this is me? I mean, this strange and ugly figure ... m-me? '' end bizarre thoughts overwhelmed me...
I'm stressed, sick, with an art block, and unmotivated somehow, and my life is such a mess, because I feel that I should try harder to go to college and be able to have my own house and live with my boyfriend, moreover, should be producing more art than I have done, to improve and have at least a bit of money ... * sighs * and worry about my health since I am living life on the edge, walk in the rain without protection, I dont feed myself well and I have only 3 or 4 hours of sleep daily. this is getting visible on my face and body and to make matters worse my anxiety attacks are becoming more frequent and stronger, I've been trying to hide from people, but it also makes me more stressed and tired than I can bear.
This time my smile is not overcoming the bad things about me ...
I want to do things in the right way but I dont know how to start, I'm afraid that my mess has fucked my whole life permanently.
* sighs *
Damn I'm so pathetic ..
Hey guys, have you ever had an identity crisis?
these last days, I have feeling ill, sick and very tired ...
I am tired of school, of work, people, life and everything else, and I got stuck on my own world with music and friendly people who took me gladly, I didnt turned on the tv and neither seen any news, nothing, I simply dont know what happened in the world in the last week, but then today I started asking questions to myself, things about me, about my world and I dont know the answer
is this a weird sensation yesterday when I passed in front of the mirror and saw my reflection and I actually thought that was a little nicer, but today when I saw the same reflection I just thought,'' is that? this is me? I mean, this strange and ugly figure ... m-me? '' end bizarre thoughts overwhelmed me...
I'm stressed, sick, with an art block, and unmotivated somehow, and my life is such a mess, because I feel that I should try harder to go to college and be able to have my own house and live with my boyfriend, moreover, should be producing more art than I have done, to improve and have at least a bit of money ... * sighs * and worry about my health since I am living life on the edge, walk in the rain without protection, I dont feed myself well and I have only 3 or 4 hours of sleep daily. this is getting visible on my face and body and to make matters worse my anxiety attacks are becoming more frequent and stronger, I've been trying to hide from people, but it also makes me more stressed and tired than I can bear.
This time my smile is not overcoming the bad things about me ...
I want to do things in the right way but I dont know how to start, I'm afraid that my mess has fucked my whole life permanently.
* sighs *
Damn I'm so pathetic ..
Just don't give up. We all have our downs, some lower than others, but we can all pull ourselves back up if we don't give up. I know it's hard, but you do have people you can talk to if you need them. I'm willing to be one of them if you need. and you always can talk to your boyfriend. I'm sure he'll be there for you (you two make such a cute couple and your art together is adorable)
(also: your anxiety attacks with get better and not happen as much if you get more rest, so please try to get more sleep)
se você tá se sentindo cansado e dormindo pouco, tenta dormir um tiquinho mais, ou mais cedo amor... não precisa ficar comigo toda hora, pode descansar, eu quero é te ver bem meu amor. Vou tentar te lembrar de algumas coisas como a de comer bem, ta bom? /n\ eu sei que você anda cansado... *abraça forte* isso pode até afetar um pouco a nossa vida e até nossa aparencia, mas eu não ligo pra aparencias momor /n\ se voce quer se sentir bem, podemos trabalhar nisso :3 cuidando melhor de você, hm?
Eu fiquei tão preocupado com essa doença que você ficou... e sobre dinheiro, não tem que se preocupar agora amor... e sei que você tá se esforçando pra ir pra uma faculdade, mas não faça isso por mim, faça por voce, em primeiro lugar. >_< sinto que eu trago expectativas na sua vida e com isso com certeza crio pra minha, mas não tem que ficar pensando muito sobre isso, é só deixar acontecer, nós damos um jeito, certo? :3 sobre seus ataques de ansiedade... você não comentou nada esses dias... não precisa esconder momor... no que eu mais quero te ajudar é nisso, quero estar do seu lado e te mostrar que não tá sozinho, que não precisa se preocupar ou se sentir mal