I just had a realization today while talking to an older coworker of mine on chat about my future. Just recently my ex whom I helped get the job where I have been working for nearly 10 years got a promotion to kennel manager. I was happy yet sad at the same time because I worked my ass off for these people for such a long time. Then again I should of knew they will never give me a chance for anything. It was around the second year into my job (or maybe first year) but at one point was taking to my boss's mom and she was saying they probably would have considered me for a manager but that won't be happening since I'm "handicapped" (yep those were the exact words she said to me) I mean seriously it wasn't my fault I was born premature and have a bit of a slow thinking capacity. But now that I think of it I could have had her slammed legally for saying something like that since its illegal to discriminate like that in the work force. But that was in the past. What I need help with is focusing where I will be in the next 5-10 years. I realized today I don't wanna continue working there forever since its a small business and it isn't gonna help me move further on with my life. I mean what if someday I do decide to move in with my mate and get a place of our own? The current wage and hours I receive from them isn't gonna support be when I will have to pay for additional bills and such. I wanna change my whole work lifestyle that will benefit me for a long time. But with what change I sadly don't know yet. I wanna be as more realistic and solid for my future and later years than what I'm currently at in this stage. I do realize I do need help, help in deciding what will benefit me and what will be deemed worthy to pull me through from this current obstacle. I'm just lost and don't know where to start. But I know I do need to change my current life so I know in the end things will be more secured and less worry some than what they currently are