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Nov 18: It Feels Like Burning
12 years ago
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Status: Tastes like suffering
█ Haven't written a journal in a while, so I guess I should or something.
Past few days I've been suffering from extreme heartburn which is rather unpleasant. I'd probably have extreme difficulties sleeping if not for antacids due to the associated pain of having part of one's digestive system being melted away. I know that certain foods causes more heartburn for me than others, but I've never been able to pinpoint what.
Currently I've gone without eating for about 20 hours save for around a dozen potato chips and I find that I don't feel hungry. A little bit weird I guess, course I was kind of testing the 'feeling of burning' vs the 'feeling of hungry'.
█ In not shocking news I'm back into a more depressive mood. Though to be fair I think that's more a few days ago since when I'm really depressed the last thing I want to do is write a status report on that. I don't really need or want the attention (still don't) but I do try to write a journal now just for the sake of letting people know that I'm still milling about. It's always in the back of my mind of how one is supposed to report on one's own depression without simultaneously not look like as if I'm begging for attention. Not to mention how I'm supposed to talk about it without having other people become sad as well. Other kinds of problems are easier to talk about without the other person become sad as well, like... heartburn, or lack of sleep. I suppose I might elaborate on the 'taboos' of depression in another journal entry if I put a bit more thought into it later.
█ Sometimes I consider becoming a video blogger of sorts, simply because I do a lot of thinking on a lot of subjects, course a problem with that is I don't like listening to myself speak. Not that I've listened to myself speaking a lot, but I know how boring or annoying a person's voice can be at times. Just off/on thoughts of other ways I could express myself other than these journal musings or drawing things.
█ I suppose speaking of art, I've run into one of them artistic/inspirational blocks. I'm trying to work through it on my own before the pressure of needing money pretty much forces me over it. I suppose the problem is via a combination of a bit of boredom combined with depression combined with standards for myself that I've set too high again. It's hard balancing certain aspects of myself, and I'm not doing too good a job of it. Though I suppose as I write this stuff down it's something more tangible and something I can grasp with, to let myself relax a bit and not worry so much about 'quality.'
Made me think of a line I heard recently "Saying graphics are important to a game is the same as watching porn for the story."
Which in my case is that I should relax about about the details and worry more about expressing the idea. Something I know, but needs reminding every so often.
|██████████|MIND
|██████████|SOUL
Status: Tastes like suffering
█ Haven't written a journal in a while, so I guess I should or something.
Past few days I've been suffering from extreme heartburn which is rather unpleasant. I'd probably have extreme difficulties sleeping if not for antacids due to the associated pain of having part of one's digestive system being melted away. I know that certain foods causes more heartburn for me than others, but I've never been able to pinpoint what.
Currently I've gone without eating for about 20 hours save for around a dozen potato chips and I find that I don't feel hungry. A little bit weird I guess, course I was kind of testing the 'feeling of burning' vs the 'feeling of hungry'.
█ In not shocking news I'm back into a more depressive mood. Though to be fair I think that's more a few days ago since when I'm really depressed the last thing I want to do is write a status report on that. I don't really need or want the attention (still don't) but I do try to write a journal now just for the sake of letting people know that I'm still milling about. It's always in the back of my mind of how one is supposed to report on one's own depression without simultaneously not look like as if I'm begging for attention. Not to mention how I'm supposed to talk about it without having other people become sad as well. Other kinds of problems are easier to talk about without the other person become sad as well, like... heartburn, or lack of sleep. I suppose I might elaborate on the 'taboos' of depression in another journal entry if I put a bit more thought into it later.
█ Sometimes I consider becoming a video blogger of sorts, simply because I do a lot of thinking on a lot of subjects, course a problem with that is I don't like listening to myself speak. Not that I've listened to myself speaking a lot, but I know how boring or annoying a person's voice can be at times. Just off/on thoughts of other ways I could express myself other than these journal musings or drawing things.
█ I suppose speaking of art, I've run into one of them artistic/inspirational blocks. I'm trying to work through it on my own before the pressure of needing money pretty much forces me over it. I suppose the problem is via a combination of a bit of boredom combined with depression combined with standards for myself that I've set too high again. It's hard balancing certain aspects of myself, and I'm not doing too good a job of it. Though I suppose as I write this stuff down it's something more tangible and something I can grasp with, to let myself relax a bit and not worry so much about 'quality.'
Made me think of a line I heard recently "Saying graphics are important to a game is the same as watching porn for the story."
Which in my case is that I should relax about about the details and worry more about expressing the idea. Something I know, but needs reminding every so often.
Also, I really like your art. You do a wonderful job. I'm worried that you are suffering from artist vision: http://www.missmab.com/Comics/Vol_672.php
If you can't afford it or just can't take that medication, try having foods and drinks that are base in contrast to acid, like milk.
As for the depression, well, juat take things easy and make some time for yourself. After all, every artist deserves some sort of break if they need or want one. ;-3
And yes, it works. I had chronic heartburn and eventually went to the doctor. 2 months of Omeprazole and it went away nearly completely. After going off the meds it's MUCH less frequent than before, and now I take a Zantac whenever it randomly returns.
I've found the food I eat has little or no effect on the hearburn pattern .
Some times the heartburn is an indicator of extreme stress but it can also be a sign of a more serious problem. If this doesn't stop by the end of the nerve-wracking holiday season, I'd recommend seeing a doctor.