It finally happened. I think I hit rock bottom again, and this time even my subconscious if fucking sick of it. It's time I get my act together. First, I'm going to lose weight and get in shape. Then, I'm going to fix my social life. No more of this lack of confidence shit. I KNOW what I can do, it's time I recognize it and use it as an advantage rather than worry about it. This time I can feel that I'm really convinced to it. I don't have that voice in my head trying to talk me out of it.

I hope things work out between a certain someone and myself, but I'm not going to let it ruin me if they don't. I hit rock bottom, and I meant what I said when I apologized. I'm going to learn from this, with or without them by my side and I'm gonna get my act together. Of course, I'd rather have them by my side through it.

Look out for a new and improved me. My goal is to be free of 50 lbs by Anthrocon (or at least converted to muscle).