I've been going through emotional extremes. loneness seems to be the one causing problems this time. everytime I turn around it seems someone's getting into a relationship or is in a relationship. Now I've always been the one that never wanted a relationship. I've been content to be the loner, the anti-social, the recluse, the wall flower, the shoulder for people to lean on, and the one always looking in.

For some reason... lately I've been feeling left out. As someone who's friends are mostly online... I don't know what to do. I've built this wall of solitude and worn it for so long. I don't think I can ever escape it... despite wanting to.