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My Apologies
12 years ago
If you've known me longer than just a few months you might have noticed that most of my journals consist of
"LOVELOVELOVELOVE" usually followed somewhat by "life is sucking right now no art.." over and over
And I want to apologize for this, obviously for the craplifenoart part
I know most of you probably will say I shouldn't be, but I still am
I joined this site to draw fluffy things and Pokemon and dragons.. and my art has been greatly lacking
The reason for this, in all honesty, is because of me.
Not because of my life right now [although that's a teenyweeny part]
Every time I think "oh fuck yeah just got off work lets draw" I think
oh shit
I should do that commission
I should do THAT commission too
I should clean my room
I should pack that into that box
I should run these errands
And, naturally, my reaction is to
Not do literally anything except talk to my girlfriend on skype
Because I feign tiredness from work, only because the thought of doing things I'm SUPPOSED to gives me fatigue.
This is really the stupidest thing ever, and I apologize to all of you
my commissioners, my watchers, my fans
my friends
You all deserve better than this and I've been selfish
Tomorrow is my day off and I'm using it the best way I can.
I'm going to finish Tahu's character, then sketch a background before I even consider stopping.
I'm going to do the lineart I owe an old friend.
I'm going to do laundry, vaccuum, clean, organize.
I'm going to go out and resend Mave's pictures and another errand.
Then.. and only then, after everything is done on this list
I am going to flood this site with Pokemon and hearts and a very fluffy dragon that loves you
Meaning me
And I will show my unwavering gratitude to all of you who sit there and don't unwatch me because of my whiney inactive-ness, but continue to wait patiently because you either love my art or me
I love and appreciate you all so much, and I promise to make these last few months up to you.
Because you deserve my best, not my worst.
If you make it feel better, I use the same excuse... far too often.
This awkward slobbery pain aside it'll be good to see you uploading again, I've not had an art fix from you in a while <3
That hit me home very very well. I wish I could convince myself otherwise that "hey, you only worked 5 hours, people normally work 8, you shouldn't be tired. Get your shit together". I am quite literally half a year behind in my own personal artwork, and I hardly know how to hold my pencil right now. Back to basics for me! But.. the thought of going through the process of practice keeps me from doing one of my favorite old pass times. Huff.
I am glad you made this journal for us to see, and it'll take a lot to shake me off your tail and unwatch yas. You bring a lot of love and creativity to the table, which is something a lot of artists are either not keen on or simply don't touch upon enough.
Cheers to revelation, hope everything goes over swell