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12 years ago
So I am laying here in my old bedroom and on my old laptop wondering how the crap I have gotten in this situation. I drunk right now, not to the incredibly stupid stage but more like I am trying to sober up and wanting a philosophical conversation with someone type stage. Almost drank a liter of vodka to myself and realized that I should probably write something down.
I will refrain from making any stupid comments and like always I will also try to make things short because that is what I like to do. I do not like long winded conversations unless it is something interesting or believe in to be true. I am in my drunken stupor and finding out that my life decisions have been poor but also very interesting to begin with. I have survived the many challenges in life and have fought the many battles that would push many to the edge. I am feeling rather chill and relax and yet I crave to have more in my life. Yet where do I go from here?
That is the question that I have been asking myself for sometime now. Where do I stand and where do I set forth? Should I back track my ways or should I keep moving forward and see what is next to come on down the road? That is my immediate questions that I have to ask.
Some of the more long term questions I have been asking myself are things like; Should I get involved in romance or should I write about getting involved in romance through narrative? It may come to surprise many that I am still a virgin and have not done the full completion of the act of mating. I have come close however it always ends abrupt and leaves me wondering about how I should move on. Maybe this seems silly but I must state that I have yet to actually feel the power of love physically. Holding someone that I feel is truly to be my mate and lover in my arms and giving them the kind of love that I have for them. Notice that I do not state the gender question. I also highly doubt anyone is going to read this journal or give me feedback.
While yes, I am drunk I do feel the need to ask what the fuck I should do now? A comment will help but I ultimately am the one that chooses my own path and actions.
I am sharing some of my thoughts openly and letting them be known. I am trying not be lookingn like it is an emotional distress but a mere observation on my life as it is now. Maybe in the future when I am not so drunk I will do a more detailed journal however I felt like it is time for an update...
Also I have plenty of roleplaying books that could use great homes hit me up with a note if you are interested. Also looking for people to help out with my writer's block/laziness. Always look for someone to inspire me to write more. :D
Leave comments if you wish, I will respond to them.
I will refrain from making any stupid comments and like always I will also try to make things short because that is what I like to do. I do not like long winded conversations unless it is something interesting or believe in to be true. I am in my drunken stupor and finding out that my life decisions have been poor but also very interesting to begin with. I have survived the many challenges in life and have fought the many battles that would push many to the edge. I am feeling rather chill and relax and yet I crave to have more in my life. Yet where do I go from here?
That is the question that I have been asking myself for sometime now. Where do I stand and where do I set forth? Should I back track my ways or should I keep moving forward and see what is next to come on down the road? That is my immediate questions that I have to ask.
Some of the more long term questions I have been asking myself are things like; Should I get involved in romance or should I write about getting involved in romance through narrative? It may come to surprise many that I am still a virgin and have not done the full completion of the act of mating. I have come close however it always ends abrupt and leaves me wondering about how I should move on. Maybe this seems silly but I must state that I have yet to actually feel the power of love physically. Holding someone that I feel is truly to be my mate and lover in my arms and giving them the kind of love that I have for them. Notice that I do not state the gender question. I also highly doubt anyone is going to read this journal or give me feedback.
While yes, I am drunk I do feel the need to ask what the fuck I should do now? A comment will help but I ultimately am the one that chooses my own path and actions.
I am sharing some of my thoughts openly and letting them be known. I am trying not be lookingn like it is an emotional distress but a mere observation on my life as it is now. Maybe in the future when I am not so drunk I will do a more detailed journal however I felt like it is time for an update...
Also I have plenty of roleplaying books that could use great homes hit me up with a note if you are interested. Also looking for people to help out with my writer's block/laziness. Always look for someone to inspire me to write more. :D
Leave comments if you wish, I will respond to them.
