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What Does This Say About Me? (serious inquiry)
12 years ago
"Your true face... What kind of... face is it? I wonder... The face under the mask... Is that... your true face?"
Sooo....my ex decided to send me a long and drawn out text to me about how worthless and useless I am. and how I'm a failure as a man and how she enjoyed cheating on me and "no wonder all your girlfriends have cheated on you: you're pathetic".
needless to say I'm not in a good mood. but it's been getting me thinking. every year around thanksgiving and Christmas. I go through some sort of emotional trauma. like breaking up ot having my heart torn to pieces. I'm really starting to hate the holidays.
why does it have to happen around now?
like I keep seeing all over my Facebook...friends i grew up with getting married...and living happy lives...some having kids. shit like that. and i see couples EVERYWHERE....this stuff is really starting to get to me. to the point to where it's starting to affect my poetry. I write a lot of it. and never post it were cause I feel some of which...is a little too personal far here...but...like...I'm in this super deep rut now. and that text was literally the straw that broke the camels back.
I've never been this...well...sad over something like this....normally an ex's bullshit doesn't really effect me like this...but...she got me.....got me good this time....
why have all of them cheated?
what's that say about me?
(don't want a "I'm sorry, poor you" response. I want honest thoughts)
needless to say I'm not in a good mood. but it's been getting me thinking. every year around thanksgiving and Christmas. I go through some sort of emotional trauma. like breaking up ot having my heart torn to pieces. I'm really starting to hate the holidays.
why does it have to happen around now?
like I keep seeing all over my Facebook...friends i grew up with getting married...and living happy lives...some having kids. shit like that. and i see couples EVERYWHERE....this stuff is really starting to get to me. to the point to where it's starting to affect my poetry. I write a lot of it. and never post it were cause I feel some of which...is a little too personal far here...but...like...I'm in this super deep rut now. and that text was literally the straw that broke the camels back.
I've never been this...well...sad over something like this....normally an ex's bullshit doesn't really effect me like this...but...she got me.....got me good this time....
why have all of them cheated?
what's that say about me?
(don't want a "I'm sorry, poor you" response. I want honest thoughts)
Also, how pathetic is she to constantly harass you?
You're not pathetic at all and that bitch can go fuck herself or just get kicked in the cunt.
I bet she hooked with a fucking douche.
I see nothing wrong with you. You're honestly a sweet guy. Maybe it's not but them. Who's to say that you're at fault here?
Look, I'm no expert at love, but I do understand people. Are we all perfect? No, but doesn't mean it always our fault.
Maybe you been hanging with bad women (include that whore of an ex [seriously, I don't normally express violence towards but now I want to fucking punch her in her ugly ass face])?
I say you should list the horrible shit that last ex done to you. Tell her how much of a monster she is, how she will never understand true love and she's so low for picking on a sweet guy like you.
Honesty, I've never dated anyone before but I understand love is not easy. I don't expect my first date to go well, I don't when or if ever I will find the one, but doesn't mean I shouldn't give up.
I say keep trying. Push forward. Stand up for yourself. Don't let yourself get pushed around. Life and love is tough, but when you work hard for it, you will be well rewarded.
You should text me sometime, doll. <3 I'll make you feel better. ;D
is this how you feel?
Best of Luck: Chuck