I've been shrinking away from contact with my friends lately. It just doesn't feel like they have time for me anymore. I've been trying to deal with a lot of things and, I don't know.

I don't feel like I'm worth their time, worth anyone's time and care. Nobody's really proven me wrong.

For now at least I wish I at the very least had someone to talk to who won't take my bullshit, won't let me take my bullshit, or my lies. Someone who'll stick around and prove me wrong, y'know?

I've never had that though, except for once. I'm starting to think people like that aren't the kind one comes across more than once in a lifetime.

TL;DR I might not be posting journals for a while. I don't want to bother anyone.